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One Year +
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Yay it was exciting to FINALLY read an update from you again!! Sounds like things have been a kind or rollercoaster for you. I didn't know you smoked :( Anyhow, good luck with the teaching this fall, hopefully this year will go more smoothly for you and hey it's only one more year so you can always start looking for a new position for next year. Your summer job sounds sweet! I hope this new guy works out for you. Hope to see an update from you again soon!! Miss your entries!! luv yu![coffee_mug]
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2008-07-19 15:40:56 |
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Life
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I'm sorry about your brother, do you mind if i ask what happened?[Downcastskies]
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2007-05-12 03:55:51 |
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Life
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I am so sorry to hear about your brother's passing. That must have been a very difficult time for you and I imagine it still is difficult. You can trust me when I say it will get easier someday but in the meantime welcome the grief, it might help you cope more, at least it did for me when my Dad passed away. Great to hear about you teaching. I'm sure that you will find the perfect school to teach at. Maybe try to visit some of the potential schools you'd think you'd like to work at. I know things will work out for you the way they are supposed to. Not much else to write! It was great that you updated! It's definitely been a while!! Hopefully you can get back into updating more regularly again! Have a lovely week! [coffee_mug]
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2007-02-26 09:33:30 |
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Life
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You made me cry!!![xptandplx]
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2007-02-20 18:10:18 |
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same old
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Look cannot be help one dun worry too much about it. [Storm Guardian]
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2007-01-22 03:51:59 |
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same old
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maybe recognize your positive qualities more ..you'd be surprised what kind of vibe that send out to the world
[Miss Jingles]
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2007-01-19 12:52:25 |
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same old
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You are definitely way to hard on yourself. It seems like you're putting entirely too much pressure on yousrelf to find new people to spend time with and to jump headfirst, as you put it, into a relationship. I think that once you become happy with yourself and learn to enjoy your own company things will fall into place for you. In the meantime, maybe try and get up the nerve to go to a cafe by yourself and have a cup of coffee, bring a book if you don't feel comfortable sitting there without a prop. Everything happens for a reason and things will start to turn out for you once you lose the pressure you're putting on yourself. As for everyone who says that you look pissed off or are frowing all the time, that's just too bad for them now isn't it? If you don't feel that way, then I'm sure you don't project those feelings. So just ignore them! Good luck!![coffee_mug]
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2006-09-18 14:17:38 |
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it just is
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*hugs* You're not weak, you are simply stuck in a rut! That's it that's all and you need to find a way to get out of that rut that you've gotten yourself in. I think that if you let yourself be open to new options, new ideas, new adventures then things will begin to change for you. I know it's hard to have things change, but for things to get better, you have to allow some things to change. You'll find the right guy soon, just stop looking for him and he'll come to you. Maybe for halloween this year, you could go to the place you always go to for the day, since it's tradition and then that night start a new tradition, by having a party or something. You'll figure out it! Getting older is hard to do! [coffee_mug]
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2006-09-12 16:08:47 |
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class
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Maybe this is the year you'll force yourself to talk to the people who sit beside you. This way you can work on becoming friends with them. I'm sure you're not a social-retard, as you put it, but you just have a difficult time talking to new people. I'm sure you'll make friends! Good luck!!![coffee_mug]
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2006-08-28 14:12:40 |
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class
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gosh kendalllll just start randomlly talking!!! who cares if ppl think you are weird, they will start talking back.... THEN you will be friends![xptandplx]
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2006-08-27 23:42:16 |
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class
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Try saying hi and smiling, you will find a lot of people would like to be your friend, remember the one thing that people love more than anything else, is talking about themselves, so say hi, how are ya, and listen. Criss[silentnight]
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2006-08-27 22:40:22 |
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A PITBULL b****!
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if you can find the title of that song let me know id love to hear it [butterflysrfree]
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2006-08-18 19:36:14 |
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upppdate!
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Perhaps make it your goal this year to be more outgoing with new people. Strike up a conversation with the people who sit beside you in your classes. If you are in the cafeteria and see some guy who interests you, just go up and talk to him. Yeah it's going to be really hard to do, but he'll likely be flattered that you picked him to give attention to. I'm one to talk about being confident here, but if you wear your confidence from the inside out, people will see this and you'll likely end up making more friends. Anyhow, yay for getting to go back to school soon, it sounds like your last year will be a blast![coffee_mug]
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2006-08-15 08:36:58 |
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i won't break
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I don't think you're so much 'closed off' as afraid of getting hurt. At least that's what it sounds like to me. As far as the Joel guy goes, just talk to him. I mean seriously here, what's the worst that could happen - you become friends? I would be anything that no one is judging you around him and especially not him. Think of it this way, would he talk to you if he thought there was something wrong with you? Obviously he thinks you're a great person. Remember people don't talk to people who they think are 'weird' or something like that. You sound like me in that you worry to much as well. It's hard though, to let go of your inhibitions so to speak and just relax around people. I still get along better with younger people to, but it'll change eventually for you. As hard as it is, just try to relax and go with the flow of things and I bet you'll be a much happier person in the end. Good luck!![coffee_mug]
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2006-08-04 09:13:35 |
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i won't break
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When I was your age I went through the same thing. I was so paranoid that I couldn't enter a room full of guys without feeling very very shy and awkward. I didn't outgrow it until I was much older... [SteeleBlack]
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2006-07-17 23:03:55 |
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this is what i feel like
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There used to be a food lion in my homeland but now they just crashed out. School seems fun isnt it better than working,... At least it is not a 13 to 14 hours thing [Storm Guardian]
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2006-07-15 11:06:56 |
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this is what i feel like
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Darlin', I smoke, not a good habbit to start, I wouldn't recommend it. And as for while you drive, thats how it starts. At first it was just while drinking coffee, for me. The when i was drawing, then before i sang, and next thing you know it i'm smoking a pack a day. Bad bad girl -waves a finger- but as for feeling alive, DONT SETTLE go back to school, get an education to do the things YOU want to do. its easier said than done, i know, but baby, you cant settle...DONT SETTLE IN LOVE EITHER...just stop looking so hard and dont settle, sooner or later, its gonna fall right into your lap baby doll...xoxoxox Ash[Brokenheartsociety]
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2006-07-08 23:57:26 |
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it's official
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hahahhaa dude i always make fun of people i like and i am shocked when it bothers them cause i figure they should see through it, i thought i was the only one. [shroeder]
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2006-07-03 23:57:27 |
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inner beauty
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you know your beautiful and you dont need any man to tell you that!!!!!!!!!! but uh... quit smoking!!! [xptandplx]
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2006-07-01 00:49:04 |
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randomness
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You should likely just delete Lee's number and IM contact info - he's a temptation for a weak moment, and he's not worth your time and pain. My best friend went through a cervical cancer oreadl when we were 22, it was lame, but she's good now and I hope that your friend will be able to say those words soon too -- You'll love her and that's what will count the most
[Miss Jingles]
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2006-06-21 22:55:56 |
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randomness
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Yay for your raises, that's always exciting! Glad to hear you are happy about going back to work at Food Lion - at least it's extra income. Just be careful about being out in the sun to long and remember to wear sunscreen people get skin cancer really easily these days. I know it's hard but you should try to stop thinking about all the boys in the past and did you ever think that maybe you didn't screw up, that it was simply them? Anyhow, I shouldn't tell you what to do, it's not nice. I hope you have an awesome week![coffee_mug]
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2006-06-20 06:58:06 |
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That's sucky that you're not getting enough hours, perhaps they'll pick up more in a few weeks? I'm so sorry to hear about your friend and her diagnosis. Probably the best way to keep her mind off of it is to maybe have a girls night out or a weekend type thing - you could do a whole at home spa theme or something like that. I'll be praying for her! And if she does have to have a hystorectomy it wouldn't be the end of the world if it takes away the cancer for one, two no more periods for her ever and three there are lots of wonderful children who need adopting. I'm sure everything will turn out the way it is supposed to for her. The best thing you can do for her is be there when she needs to talk and someone to lean on and to be supportive of her for everything she's going through. [coffee_mug]
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2006-06-19 05:59:37 |
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Whoa
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I'm very impressed with your productiveness. It's always good to get on those kicks every now and again. Yay for being strong and not calling Lee, it's probably better that you didn't. It sucks being lonely for sure, but you'll find someone sooner or later. In the meantime maybe take up a hobby or something to fill in your time - me I escape to books. Hope you have a stellar Monday![coffee_mug]
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2006-06-12 07:17:07 |
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Whoa
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You have inspried me to not be lazy any longer. To try to get over my rut, which he has put me in. Thank you.[NeuroticRebel]
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2006-06-10 16:39:50 |
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Numero Dos
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want such dreams too :) and that thanks for your congrats :)[Storm Guardian]
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2006-06-08 08:19:40 |
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Numero Dos
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Congratulations on the job! I bet you'll have tons of fun working at Bath and Body Works. Hopefully you'll get a discount on the prodcuts there - that'd be awesome! Hope all is well. Good luck on your first day! [coffee_mug]
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2006-06-07 07:45:00 |
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Numero Dos
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dont hate me cuz you aint me! is 6.75 alot? cuz min. wage here is 7.75... so i dont know if thats alot or not!!!!! and quit being a horny toad! [xptandplx]
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2006-06-03 23:34:39 |
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Numero Dos
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how do u have to be[wanat]
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2006-06-03 14:17:47 |
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Hip, Hip...
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Yay! That's great that the doctor took the tape off your nose! You do sound like a rather thrifty shopper, very good. Perhaps I should come visit you and you can help me do some shopping - I need new clothes like there's no tomorrrow lol Ok so not that bad. Hmm a boy?! You should ask him out. OR you could slip him your phone number when he rings up your order next time you go. He'll be more than flattered and it could be the start of something good. You can do it! Good luck finding another job. You are strong, You are beautiful, You are worth it![coffee_mug]
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2006-05-31 08:39:52 |
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Hip, Hip...
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what the hell is a chesire crab? thats the most awesome name ive ever heard![xptandplx]
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2006-05-31 01:31:28 |
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just an update
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everyone has to have those blow up tantrums thingys! its just the way it has to be...[xptandplx]
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2006-05-30 02:42:40 |
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just an update
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Sorry to hear you had such a crappy weekend. That wasn't very nice that everyone kept it from you how long you'd have to keep the tape on your nose. If your mom was concerned about how you were feeling on the weekend, you think she would have told the family that you were having a rough go of your surgery or something like that. Too bad she ignored the problem about how you were feeling, maybe she didn't know how to comfort you this time - which sounds like it wouldn't be normal for her. No excuses though, I think you should talk to her to find out what's going on. Good luck finidng a job, it's not an easy feat! I'm sure you'll enjoy working at he flower shop again :) Enjoy your MOnday!![coffee_mug]
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2006-05-29 07:45:13 |
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really bored
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my dog probably has more clothes than you!!! i was gonna buy her some shoes, but they didnt have her size... they only had small... but she needs a medium cuz she is a heiffer! [xptandplx]
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2006-05-25 19:46:25 |
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really bored
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You will be ready when the time comes to student teach - if it's what you really want to do it should come naturally to you. Try not to be scared about being done school, it's exciting really. You get to move onto the next phase of your life! Everything will work out the way it is supposed to and fall into place - it might take longer than you expect but things will happen all in good time. Yay for getting the bandages off your face, that must've been exciting. I remember when I had my jaw surgery how excited I was when I could take the bandage off my chin - it all seems so surreal now. Enjoy the rest of your week and continue with your boring updates! :D lol[coffee_mug]
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2006-05-25 09:29:34 |
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it's good to be back...for now atleast
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You looked really pretty that day, glad to see you're back! :)[Downcastskies]
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2006-05-24 15:23:10 |
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it's good to be back...for now atleast
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your friend that got married always looks so old! how old is that broad? [xptandplx]
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2006-05-24 03:28:20 |
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it's good to be back...for now atleast
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Yippy Skippy she wrote an entry!! How are you really? It's been um lets see FOREVER since you've last written! That's exciting that your friend got married. How many more years do you have in whatever program you are taking? You'll definitely find a boy when you least expect it, that's how it works. Glad to hear the surgery on your nose went well. Thanks for the comments :) Umm yep, not sure what else to write, hope you update again soon, I missed reading your entries! - Jaclyn - [coffee_mug]
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2006-05-23 07:59:50 |
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we talked
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That sounds very confusing.... i think it is pretty confusing on my parts lol.,... And the only thing i can tell is that give him a ring and tell him that you missed him.[Storm Guardian]
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2005-11-09 08:55:46 |
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we talked
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Happy 400th entry! I once went OFF on this guy who I used to love in my diary...he was AWOL for like a year at that point...and then once i went OFF he showed up and was like "um...sorry" lol. Isn't it crazy how when you decide to just go crazy the person you're going crazy about shows up? Freaks me out. [MotherAlli]
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2005-10-18 00:05:07 |
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we talked
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Learn to love yourself so that you can love another when the time is right.
[Miss Jingles]
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2005-10-11 13:58:25 |
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we talked
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That's good that you and your ex talked. To bad about the distance thing though, it sounds like things were going well between the two of you. Good plan on not trying to give him false hope of you two starting something up again while you're at school. I'm sure everything will fall into place when it's supposed to :) - Jaclyn - [coffee_mug]
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2005-10-10 08:20:24 |
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just thought i'd let you know...
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i miss the old crush from the library! what was his name? tom? [xptandplx]
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2005-10-04 00:47:19 |
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just thought i'd let you know...
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Hehe you're so cute! It's adorable how you get crushes on guys, the way you describe them rocks lol That's good that you're at least talking to Hot Irish boy - you never know what might happen. Maybe one of these times when he checks out a book slip your number into it when you scan it haha Then for library boy, maybe ask him to have coffee or something with you after one of your shifts, that might be fun :) Hope all else is well! - Jaclyn - [coffee_mug]
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2005-10-04 00:06:15 |
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good gravy
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lol does it matter how many eyes or not that a person have? There's no point in having ten or twenty eyes or more when the person is rotten to the core? lol... Anyway just be friends with him and see how it goes....[Storm Guardian]
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2005-10-01 10:55:51 |
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good gravy
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haha i went to school with a guy who had one eye, his sister stabbed him with a fork at the dinner table cuz she was mad at him! crazy huh! he always popped it out in class... but then he came to my dental school and everyone made fun of him so he switched classes... it was sad![xptandplx]
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2005-09-30 23:56:44 |
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good gravy
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I'm sure that when you least expect it you will find a guy to crush on. I mean who knows maybe there's a guy in one of your classes that you haven't really noticed before, or maybe you've seen someone in the cafeteria, but never really "seen" them. I bet that there is at least one guy at your school who is interested in getting to know you but is so afraid of rejection that they won't say anything to you. Good luck in the boy department. Hope all else is going well! - Jaclyn - [coffee_mug]
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2005-09-30 20:26:23 |
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We're Over
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Wow...I soooo haven't talked to you in forever! The last time I ever wrote in this thing was over 2 years ago. Lonnnnnng time....now I'm in college (freshmen yr) and livin in the dorms..and completely loving it!! But yeah, your guy situation sounds a lot like one I just had. Kinda. Hrm. Anyway, I just wanted to say hey....if you're ever on xanga, my name is aceacebaiby. Talk to ya later :-)[SexyTennisPlaya]
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2005-09-26 22:34:42 |
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We're Over
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you drinking is pissing me off![xptandplx]
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2005-09-11 23:53:21 |
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We're Over
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well i tis not the best way to go...but sometimes the most honest - as you can type in a way you cannot talk...so it is icky, but understandable! [Miss Jingles]
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2005-09-11 14:48:14 |
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We're Over
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Sorry to hear about your break-up dear, those are definitely always hard - no matter how mutual or for whatever reason. Haha about the Mike guy. He wants you for your body - so OBVIOUSLY you ARE attractive young lady! I hope you've gotten it through that head of your's that you are beautiful :D Hope you didn't have a mad hang-over after you wrote this hehehe - Jaclyn - [coffee_mug]
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2005-09-10 05:52:06 |
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Ups and Downs
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i dont like the kid... [xptandplx]
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2005-09-06 14:24:22 |
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Ups and Downs
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You always look for a new reason to beat yourself up..so you (like me) have a reason not to totally embrace yourself -- well call BS on yourself ..enjoy what you have and if someone better comes along..then fine - end it, you aren't married nor are you serious...so enjoy yourself!! DO it..love the skin you are in![Miss Jingles]
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2005-09-05 20:10:08 |
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Ups and Downs
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Don't ever tell yourself you are a bad person, you definitely are not. You realize - well it sounds like both of you do - that one is using the other for the security of a relationship and what not. I mean how are you really going to survive until thanksgiving without seeing one another? I bet that is going to prove to be very difficult. How come he hasn't seen the silly obnoxious side of you? If that's who you are, then he's going to either like you for you or not. As far as ending the relationship goes, that's totally dependent on how you REALLY feel for him? I mean do you feel an emotional connection with him? Or none at all? Just things to think about. I'm going to Hawaii to run a marathon for the arthritis society. And yes Brenden is the guy from my acting class - you definitely have a good memory. I'm so glad that you're writing in your diary again, I definitely missed reading it!!! - Jaclyn - [coffee_mug]
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2005-09-05 18:39:10 |
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More Ramblings
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its funny on how friends can split on this way sometime through very little difference that can be sort right out lol... [Storm Guardian]
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2005-09-05 09:55:53 |
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More Ramblings
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Impressive, you updated again all soon :D To bad your group of friends couldn't reconcile their differences over the summer. Guess it will be an interesting year for you to try and spend time with both groups. I'm sure you'll meet tons of people this year if you make the effort - I know that in my second year I didn't know a lot of people so I made it a point to talk to the people who sat beside me in my classes and I made tons of friends - it was really easy to do, so maybe try that. Hrmm guys are just weird. Too bad Lee doesn't call you as much as you call him - maybe tell him you'd like him to call more? Best of luck!! [coffee_mug]
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2005-08-30 00:00:18 |
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More Ramblings
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well here is the things, i believe you are a young adult. and as such sometimes there are going to be people at palces that do not like one another, but as adults, hopefully they can find a way to co exist in aroom so that they do not impose on their friends other friendships ...don't let the group isolate one![Miss Jingles]
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2005-08-29 13:07:38 |
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More Ramblings
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godd iam so f***ing sad that you dont f***ing talk to me anymore! remember when we were like THIS.... but noooo now you got all these fancy friends and you HATE melissa... [xptandplx]
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2005-08-28 21:14:58 |
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So much
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I haven't given up hope of you writing again - so I definitely kept you on my favourites :) Yay for having a boyfriend! It is hard to believe when they tell you you're beautiful and such when you have a hard time believing it yourself. As far as the relationship goes, how do you REALLY feel? You need to ask yourself the questions of how often will you be able to see eachother? Do you see this thing going long-term or is it more that you just like having someone to call your boyfriend? That kinda thing. Woah on the not being a virgin thing anymore - that's everyone's personal choice though and if it was right for you, then so be it :) I hope that you start to write on here more again, we don't talk ever! Best of luck figuring out what to do - update again soon! - Jaclyn - [coffee_mug]
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2005-08-28 07:24:41 |
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So much
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hey kendal, it's me claire (tormentedsoul). Nice to hear how you're doing, and got yourself a nice irish lad i see ;) Really please for you. Try not to worry about it not working out coz the worry is what'll stuff it up. Best just to live in the moment, go with the flow. What's his name, how olds he and how long's he been livin in America? He from the Republic or Northern? Take Care, Claire x []
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2005-08-28 05:21:01 |
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A Change
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Gosh I swear I've not spoken to you in a zillion years!! I've missed you! I always tend to check the diaries at the top of my list and then get tired and you're at the bottom so I never see you..even tho you're one of my favorite favorites!!! Sheesh I am sorry!! *HUGS* FIVE POINTS OFF WHAT??? Your final grade??!! That's not fair! [MotherAlli]
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2005-05-05 20:52:31 |
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A Change
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while avoidance is fun and easy (and we are all guilty of it!) if something needs to be talked about..it will find a way to rear its head later.....so maybe let her know that you love her and go from there?[Miss Jingles]
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2005-04-25 01:29:20 |
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A Change
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You said have I considered the possibility that Brenden might be gay and I wanted to let you know that he is definitely not gay. We talked about past relationships last night. He said he hasn't had a girlfriend in a while. Yep yep.[coffee_mug]
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2005-04-23 13:14:38 |
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A Change
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I'm impressed - you updated again! LOL That's good to hear that you have your friendship back with Heather even though it seems a little awkward right now. I'm sure the two of you will talk about things when the time is right. I hope you had fun on your Subway trip haha It's a good motivator to go to class when your prof. is deducting marks, eh? LOL They should do that all the time then no one would ever miss class! haha j.k. That'd be awful if they did that. Ok this comment just got a little off topic - or not to much off topic - but me rambling :D I hope you have an awesome day and an even better weekend!! ~Jaclyn~ [coffee_mug]
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2005-04-22 11:18:43 |
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What's New
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you know, later down the line...you may be friends again. sometimes, a friendship needs a breather like any other relationship, what is meant to be will be[Miss Jingles]
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2005-04-21 03:12:05 |
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What's New
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KENDALL!! You're alive!!! LOL I've missed you to!! You NEVER write anymore :P You lazy girl you LOL That's to bad about your friend Heather, but seriously, I think that's stupid that she had to invest the help of her parents to decide if she could still be friends with you or not and even more dumb that she decided to stop being friends with you because you choose to be friends with someone she doesn't like. I mean really here - are you still in public school? It's like saying, your friend Sally stole my pencil crayon, so I can't be friends with you anymore. But you realize how silly it all is. That's good that you are FINALLY becoming better friends with guys - that's huge! Now that you're starting to get more confident around them (or so it would seem) I'm sure things will start to look up in that department. YAHOO!! For getting your braces off!!! I had to wear my retainers to all the time, like 24hrs a day for what seemed like the longest time, now I only have to wear them when I go to bed. The time will fly by and soon you won't have to wear them all the time anymore. You'll have to take pictures of you with your new beautiful smile :D Wow this comment is getting way long and I wasn't as nice as you to space it all out to make it easier to read, so this is gonna be all! If neither of us is updating so regularly anymore, I'm thinking we should email to keep in touch. Just glad to hear that everything's going alright for you and that you're still alive!! ~ Jaclyn~[coffee_mug]
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2005-04-20 11:18:57 |
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My Reflection
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i think you're pretty... even though i've never seen you. im a guy and same shit goes through my head. and then it hink im a total wierdo...but its' ok cuz everyone's wierd. people hide it mucho. but you're entires make you into one of the beautiful epole ever, love guy from ct [Anonymous]
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2005-04-10 22:13:42 |
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Out of It
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ya, careful w/ the redbulls hunny...they are so much caffiene your body doesn't know what to do ![Miss Jingles]
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2005-03-26 00:57:47 |
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Out of It
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Glad to hear you're out of your blah mood! It definitely sounds like you guys had a ton of fun on your mini-road trip! It's always fun to go into Walmarts and play with all the toys and such. That's hilarious that you guys got big stuffed animals and strapped them into the carts - nice idea! hehe I hope what's left of your weekend goes well and that you have a great start to your week tomorrow! Awesome pictures by the way!! :D (Where do you get off calling yourself fat :P)[coffee_mug]
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2005-02-27 15:56:03 |
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Hills
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Awe! *hugs* Maybe you do just write in here when you get all in your blah like moods, 'cause by the time you're done writing you feel somewhat better. Just a thought. That's good to hear though that you're getting more comfy talking to guys - GO KENDALL!! :D Well hope all continues to go well for ya :D[coffee_mug]
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2005-02-27 01:05:13 |
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Hills
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He's the guy that my friend Caitlin's friend knows him. haha thats so cute! ive met ppl from the net. i always feel lame too. i also always lie to ppl about it. haha even my therapist! you are such a pimp though!!!!!!! but yes, thinking is bad and its get you into trouble. but i love screamo![SecondClassHoe]
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2005-02-26 12:52:59 |
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My Monthly Update
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Its cool. I guess that you are really happy at the lifestyle that you are leading.... Is it fun to oggle? Just dun get caught by your boyfriend.[Storm Guardian]
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2005-02-24 06:27:04 |
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My Monthly Update
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thats because your allowing ppl in, which makes it easier to get hurt.[SecondClassHoe]
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2005-02-17 11:21:45 |
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My Monthly Update
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It totally makes sense to me that the more confident you become the more easily little things make you go blah - and my theory on this is because when you're all down, you figure you can't get any lower - but then you're all confident and you're like things should be going well and then someone throws a wrench in the works and then it makes you feel like well what was the point in me being more confident in the first place! Something along those lines! Yay for ooggling all the hot boys! And STOP being so negative missy!! You don't know that nothing will come out of the boys and you! Maybe they're just to scared to talk to you, because you are so HOT!! :D Thanks for the awesome comment. Get your butt back on here more and update! Makes me wonder where you've disappeared to when you don't update in forever!! Keep Smiling!! ~ Jaclyn [coffee_mug]
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2005-02-17 07:56:48 |
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My Reflection
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i think its a part of the transition from girl to woman...that moment in the mirror...where you look and you don't see your preconcievwed notions..you see beauty - in your terms. Men matter not in that moment. its very powerful! [Miss Jingles]
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2005-01-24 23:39:31 |
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My Reflection
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WOO!! Go Kendall!! I'm HAPPY for you that you have FINALLY realized that YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! That's so huge! As for why guys might not approach you, don't take this in the wrong way, but maybe they don't see you as aproachable...like maybe they think that you would turn them down if they talked to you. Believe it or not guys are just as insecure as girls sometimes. And seeing as you're so beautiful, they're probably like nah she woulnd't go for me. A guy will come along sooner than you think :) Isn't reading great? It takes you into a whole other world. I hope you're having an awesome week! [coffee_mug]
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2005-01-20 18:54:51 |
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My Reflection
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aww kendall i love you!!! that made me smile!!! im reading a book about gay ppl too! its called strangers, but its kinda just like... i dont know its not really a story... [SecondClassHoe]
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2005-01-20 13:13:59 |
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What a Good N ight (this is a long one)
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Hey hun. How did that blind date go? ::hugs::[MakenZero]
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2005-01-17 09:47:47 |
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What a Good N ight (this is a long one)
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I was so much like you when I was your age it's not even funny!! Just like you I used to apologize for everything - like you're apologizing for writing such a long entry. It's YOUR diary, you can write whatever you feel like and your entries can be as long or as short at you like. Remember this diary is all about YOU. I definitely understand that it's hard to get into the me-first mind set, and I'm not saying that you should stop thinking about your friends or other people, but you need to work on putting you first for once. It all comes back to the confidence thing I think. Like you assuming that your friends, or any of us here would think you're stupid for not getting over Tom yet, well I know that for one I do not think you're stupid in the slightest. We all get crushes and some you just never forget. There was a guy I met first year university and I still miss him to this day, it sucks knowing I'll probably never see him again. I hope that this long-ass comment has helped in some sense and if you EVER need to talk I'm here for ya, I'm sure you have my email address, or we could always chat on MSN messenger. Enjoy your drawing :)[coffee_mug]
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2005-01-16 21:10:17 |
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What a Good N ight (this is a long one)
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screw boys!!!!![SecondClassHoe]
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2005-01-16 16:46:20 |
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What a Good N ight (this is a long one)
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you are young. i am young. there are years and years ahead of us to make long term friends, to set emotional goals and achieve them -- you are learning about yourself...the twenties are loaded with self realization. And you will get a picture of 'who' you want to be -- and you can be that woman...there is much time. [Miss Jingles]
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2005-01-16 14:39:36 |
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back to my old self...for today at least
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First off you are NOT arrogant...you are simply gaining confidence, and there is nothing wrong with that. Congrats on finding out you can get your braces off soon. I'm pretty sure that when it says orthodontic treatment not complete, it just means that it's not complete because you'll have to have retainers and that is part of the whole process. That's great that all these guys are being friendly toward you and giving you eye contact and all that jazz...good signs. Perhaps if you ever get really brave you could ask one of them, perhaps the Joe guy (less intimidating of a place), if they want to grab a coffee or something. :D And perhaps you think that when you are confident you get big headed because you're scared to be confident...it makes sense ya know! Good luck with the contacts thing, maybe you can get your eye appointment moved up. Keep your head up Kendall!![coffee_mug]
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2005-01-14 09:20:35 |
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back to my old self...for today at least
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i hear ya on the dry skin. and if you have any pliers havea friend stick the arch wire back in.[SecondClassHoe]
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2005-01-14 00:27:15 |
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back to my old self...for today at least
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Awwww, you poor thing! Look at all them guys! Hehe! Give it time, maybe something will happen. Just don't do anything stupid.[LittleJealousRunner]
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2005-01-13 21:13:51 |
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SOOO Great to be Back!
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don't miss out on bio boy this year...just don't do it[Miss Jingles]
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2005-01-13 00:31:14 |
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SOOO Great to be Back!
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haha i love you kendall! that put a smile on my face!!!! thats why would NEVER EVER want to kill you... your roommate might... since you never go to bed... but not innocent lil me :)[SecondClassHoe]
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2005-01-11 16:48:53 |
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SOOO Great to be Back!
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That's great that you're enjoying being back at school. Yay for HOT BOYS!! It sounds like you definitely have some great prospects :D I'm flattered that you admire me. That means a lot to hear that...Thank You. Well this is all for now. I hope you're having a great start to your week back!![coffee_mug]
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2005-01-11 10:48:59 |
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Haven't Had a Night Like This In a While.
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your going on a date, and you didnt tell me????!!!?[SecondClassHoe]
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2005-01-05 14:35:19 |
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Haven't Had a Night Like This In a While.
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Glad to hear you had a fun night. That sucks about your friend Dominique not calling you back, I guess maybe you should try and call her once more maybe or send her an email and give her time to respond. Well don't know what else to say. Enjoy your poker night![coffee_mug]
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2005-01-05 07:47:48 |
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:-)
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I'm not saying I didn't like the movie at all, I mean sure it was funny 'cause it was so stupid, but I mean Trevor is like saying it's the best movie ever and it's really not :P Hope all is well! Don't forget to update when you get back to school :)[coffee_mug]
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2005-01-04 07:52:24 |
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:-)
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Hey, I've kept up with every single one of your entries, I read all about Tom and you and your friends. I'm glad you became friends with Tom and put yourself out there. Its his problem for not doing the same. I do wish things could have worked out for the two of you, but it sucks that he had to leave. There are a million other guys out there, and you two obviously weren't meant to be. So get out there and find another one, or shit, several!![red2330]
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2005-01-04 00:51:47 |
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:-)
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LJ taken over your soul as well? Hehe[Beanhead]
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2005-01-03 14:29:41 |
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That's good that you've at least found a way to be content, that's better than being blah all the time. Perhaps you're happiest at school because it's where you get to be most independent...just a guess. Sometimes it's good to stick with tradition at NYE...maybe next year you should try the party thing though, you may just enjoy yourself :) Even though you update on LJ more, perhaps you can make it a point to come back here every once in a while and update, so we know what's going on. HAPPY NEW YEAR! Enjoy your last few days of break before school starts again! Oh! Almost forgot...that's a cute picture of you and your friends...YAY for friends![coffee_mug]
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2005-01-03 09:31:57 |
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Thinking these Thoughts that I Think
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men are pussys. they dont act like t.v none of them will be like the men in your friends stories...Women have scared them - and at our young age, they don't know what to do. So if you want one, you should go get them. Next 'situation' stand up and take your man, waiting around leads to nothing but disappointment[Miss Jingles]
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2004-12-23 17:20:35 |
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Thinking these Thoughts that I Think
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You got it right in your last line...Tom is a pussy. I mean come on here...he flirts with you for the semster, has your phone number and all that jazz, yet he won't suck it up and call you! What a SHY boy! I'll cross my fingers for ya, that you get to work with another hot boy :D I'm all impressed, you didn't mention any guys named Mike in this entry LOL I hope you're enjoying your time at home and work at the flower shop. Happy Holidays :D[coffee_mug]
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2004-12-20 20:49:54 |
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Home
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Wow... how many Mike you know of hahaha... Hope that you are doing well with the first mike... i can see something coming out from there[Storm Guardian]
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2004-12-19 17:47:40 |
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Home
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there are hot boys to be oggled everywhere...its just the ones around home seem too familiar![Miss Jingles]
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2004-12-18 17:32:43 |
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Home
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It's always nice to go home for the holidays, even nicer to get a break from school work. I'm sure all the hot guys will still be at school for you to ogle when you go back. You sure do know a lot of guys named Mike! Perhaps it's time you got to know some who didn't have that name LOL That's cute about the hand holding thing, it just feels nice sometimes to hold hands. Well I hope you're having a great start to your weekend :D[coffee_mug]
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2004-12-17 21:34:47 |
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It's Been FOREVER!
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just looked at my diary and saw the entry so i do have your email addy. I will email soon :) Claire x [TormentedSoul]
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2004-12-16 07:14:40 |
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It's Been FOREVER!
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KENDAL! hi! Long time no speak :) Sorry i haven't mailed you i've stupidly deleted the email along with others by accident so i thought i'd post here and maybe you can give me your email again? Well done on phoning him! Maybe he'll get in touch with you soon, if not bummer and put it down to experience, next time when a guy who's worth you comes along hopefully your'll feel more confident because of it. So where are you at? Uni now? I guess you're about 17 now? or 18? I duno... I'm guessing that finals is exams so good luck in them, not that you will need my luck :) Good to hear from you again and hope to see more updates/ chat over mail. Claire x [Anonymous]
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2004-12-16 07:04:33 |
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It's Been FOREVER!
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i love you kendall (marie) ;)[SecondClassHoe]
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2004-12-14 16:17:31 |
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It's Been FOREVER!
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he's transferring...so i owuldn't worry too much about him thinking of you as a 'stalker' - so if you want to call him again - you should, to tell him all the fun you had and that you'll miss him and ask if you can get his screen name -- you have nothing to lose because he's leaving![Miss Jingles]
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2004-12-14 15:31:39 |
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It's Been FOREVER!
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That's too bad that Tom is transferring back to Mansfield (think that's what you said). But at least you got up the nerve to call him, which is HUGE! So perhaps next time you come across a guy you like you'll be able to work up the nerve again. And yes it has been FOREVER since you last wrote in here! I was beginning to think you weren't going to write in here anymore at all, which would suck! Best of luck on your exams, I'm sure you'll do awesome!! Looking forward to more updates from you missy![coffee_mug]
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2004-12-13 21:02:34 |
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Friend Predicament
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want me to kill her!? tom is all yours!!!![SecondClassHoe]
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2004-11-20 15:40:18 |
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Friend Predicament
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maybe ask TOm to do something after work that will take you away from Heather? Or , tell heather that it's important to you to spend some time alone with Tom. It may be that she can't help her feelings, most of us can't. Maybe she'll respect that you want to be with him and maybe she won't. And if she won't, then maybe you should consider being honest with Tom before she is :)[Miss Jingles]
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2004-11-18 19:39:54 |
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It sounds like things are going nicely between YOU and Tom. I don't even know your friend Heather and it makes me angry that she is getting all "depressed" and what not, because you like Tom to. Even if she did have more in common with him, WHO CARES, she shouldn't step on your toes. I mean say there was a guy she liked first, I bet that you wouldn't "suddenly" develop an interest in the SAME guy. It almost sounds like the only reason she "likes" him (or thinks she does), is because she found out YOU liked him and found out he was single through YOU. From everything you write, it sounds like Tom is interested in You and not her. I know this is mega hard, but maybe if you can work up the nerve, when you work with him, before Heather comes over to where you are, ask him if he wants to catch a movie on the weekend or whatever. I highly doubt he'd say no, I'd like to guarantee he wouldn't say no, but guys are unpredictable...but from everything you've written, I would say there's a 99.99999% chance he won't say anything but yes. I know it would be hard to do, but you liked him frist and it's not fair of your friend to come 'barging' in on this, even if she thinks she's better for him, that is NOT for her to decide. I'm sure Tom has a mind of his own. As far as Heather's moods go about guys, it sounds like she's doing that to get attention from her friends. If she wanted to get a guy I'm sure she could, all she would have to do is wipe the pout off her face and show some confidence. Ok that sounded kinda mean and I'm sorry. I don't even know this girl. EEK! This comment has gotten way long, I should've written you an email! Good luck with TOM! As hard as it is, IGNORE Heather on this one...you liked Tom first, so go for it, or you might get hurt by Heather butting in if you don't....YOU CAN DO IT! YOU ROCK! hehe :D[coffee_mug]
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2004-11-18 07:38:48 |
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Thank you for always leaving comments in my diary :) I have thought about a secretary/receptionist job, however, there are none hiring where I live right now, but thank you for the suggestion. Let me continue on by saying WHO CARES if Heather thinks you and Tom don't have anything in common, it sounds like she's JEALOUS that he has a thing for you, so she's pointing out stupid things to make you feel more insecure in yourself and that's just plain WRONG! If she was a good friend, she would stop hanging around the library so much when you're working with Tom. From what you've written it sounds like Tom wants to do stuff with you, but at the same time he's to shy to ask you to do something. Things will happen in time. In the meantime and I know you're probably getting sick of this but you need to get some confidence in yourself and try your best to stop over-analyzing, you'll be happier if you can accomplish these things. Anyhow, I hope you manage to have a good weekend and try to take things one day at a time. If things are supposed to work out with Tom than they definitely will, just be CONFIDENT :D[coffee_mug]
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2004-11-13 08:12:11 |
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Eh.
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Sorry that anonymous note was mine...forgot to log in, lol.[Anonymous]
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2004-11-11 19:05:01 |
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Eh.
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Awww you're not a bad person, everybody feels that way about relationships sometimes. Hehe that would be cool to leave the waiter your number...it sounds so Sex and the City :)[Anonymous]
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2004-11-11 19:02:45 |
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Eh.
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I just realized I didn't give my two cents about your friend and her boyfriend. It's ok for you to be jealous that they are getting married, it's perfectly normal in fact. I guess it's just hard knowing that your friend has found her "soul-mate" and you aren't at that stage in your life yet. We all have to realize that people need to make their own mistakes, but maybe they really are truly in love and this is the right thing for them. And you need to get it through your head that you are NOT a bad person and you are NOT selfish, you are just experiencing perfectly normal emotions about the situation and really you are just looking out for your friend, because I'm sure you don't want to see her get hurt. Anywho, this is enough of my rambling seeing as I left a LONG comment earlier. Keep your head up Kendall!! [coffee_mug]
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2004-11-10 12:05:43 |
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Eh.
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Yay I can finally leave a comment for you! That's good that you and Tom had that moment where you had talked about going to get lattes, perhaps this week you will end up getting them. You shouldn't feel selfish at all about wanting your time alone to talk and get to know Tom, I mean that's just how you're more comfortable and your friend shouldn't get offended by that at all...I mean what would she do if she were in your shoes. I hope you're feeling better than you were when you wrtoe this entry and that things are continuing to go well with you and Tom. Oh! And you shouldn't feel bad because you are starting to feel like you look good or whatever, it doesnt' mean you're concieted int he least, it just means you're finally getting the much needed confidence that you deserve to have! YOU GO GIRL! :D [coffee_mug]
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2004-11-10 10:48:34 |
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Eh.
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Firework is so beautiful. I think that the reason why you think that the firework is lonely is that after they give their brightest moment, they were gone. Everyone like what they see but no one remembers them[Storm Guardian]
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2004-11-09 08:22:28 |
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Eh.
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Firework is so beautiful. I think that the reason why you think that the firework is lonely is that after they give their brightest moment, they were gone. Everyone like what they see but no one remembers them[Storm Guardian]
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2004-11-09 08:22:28 |
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La La
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You should watch Ju-on the orginal version. It is more scary than this one. It is pretty good for a korean show.[Storm Guardian]
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2004-11-02 08:33:11 |
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La La
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GREEN DAY!!! I am so jealous.... really. I love their new cd, love love LOVE it. Anyway, thats really wierd because my friends and I were just talking about both of those two movies, and I want to them both soon. Things with Tom seem to be progressing, good news. Im sure your friend will get the hint and stay away while your at work. If not, just kindly let her know that you think Tom gets uncomfortable or make up something nice sounding.[red2330]
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2004-10-29 17:47:34 |
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La La
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Perhaps you don't like it when Heather is there because it makes Tom clam up. It kinda sounds like he's shy. He's not shy around you because he's interested in getting to know you. I know it's the hardest scariest thing to do, but if he keeps presenting you with these opportunities to invite him somewhere, you should try your best to work up your courage and ask him. It's really hard to do, but I know you can do it!! If he wasn't shy he perhaps would have asked you to do something by now. I hope you're never offended by the comments I leave for you. There just my theories :) Hope you have an awesome birthday this weekend!![coffee_mug]
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2004-10-29 13:39:29 |
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La La
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dude its gonna be your bday?!?!?!?!?!?! gimme your address! im gonna mail you a card!!!!!!!![SecondClassHoe]
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2004-10-29 12:55:46 |
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La La
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dude its gonna be your bday?!?!?!?!?!?! gimme your address! im gonna mail you a card!!!!!!!![SecondClassHoe]
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2004-10-29 12:55:46 |
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Old Entry
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From the sounds of things Tom TOTALLY likes you. You need to try your best not to be so shocked that this is possible. Him saying he's never been to Jazzmans was a total opportunity to invite him, like you said you should've said after...maybe he's shy like you when it comes to the opposite sex and is waiting for you to make the first move. I know it's hard, believe me I've been there, but you have to work on that confidence there girly....YOU CAN DO IT! And next time someone tells you you are pretty or gives you a compliment, you should just say thank you, and don't over-analyze it or put it down (like I still sometimes do). Yep it's pretty hard to be positive sometimes. Enjoy the rest of your week![coffee_mug]
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2004-10-28 07:46:45 |
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Old Entry
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Sims 2 eh? sounds like fun..and ya, MDD looks funny, it made me so confused![Miss Jingles]
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2004-10-25 17:59:59 |
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Better
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I just played catch up with your journal. I'm thinking that the reason those girls always have guys is because they exude confidence. I can't say for sure whether or not you are confident because I really don't know, but that seems to play a major factor in the guy department, they want a girl who is confident. It sounds like things are progressing nicely between you and Tom, you are friends right now and you should always be friends before you date someone. So just keep up the whole talking with him like you're doing and things will progress naturally like they should. CONGRATULATIONS! On losing weight. That's totally awesome. Just remember to mix up your gym routine every now and then so your body doesn't get used to one type of exercise. I hope you have an awesome fall break and a great shift back with Tom on Wednesday!! :D [coffee_mug]
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2004-10-19 12:56:52 |
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Better
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Good job on the weight loss- but please don't think that getting down to 125 will make you a better person. You are wonderful the way you are! And way to go on chatting with Tom. It sounds like it's going well! [Elisheva]
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2004-10-19 12:19:05 |
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kendall, i love you and im so proud of you for losing weight!!!!!!!!! thats hard work man! [SecondClassHoe]
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2004-10-17 12:17:28 |
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Better
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Aww I'm so happy for you! That's so awesome about Tom, and congrats on losing the weight! :) Take care! [Black Black Rose]
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2004-10-16 12:34:29 |
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Sleep is So Hard to Come By
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I don't believe that it comes when you least expect it. But I do believe that love comes when you love yourself. How can you expect others to love you if you don't even love yourself. When you are totally comfortable in your skin, when you know who you are, when you are ready to say, "take me or leave me-this is who I am", that's when it happens. And you are pretty. What's wrong with having an ego! [Elisheva]
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2004-10-13 13:47:28 |
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Sleep is So Hard to Come By
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You know... I dont know if this is just me or not but, I have found that when I like a guy, he usually doesnt know I do. And I might really start to like him and become semi-obsessed with him. Then after a while, IF and only IF he likes me back, its almost no fun anymore. I mean, at first its great because he actually likes me back. but I tend to loose interest because I can have him now, where as before he was something I couldnt have.. I don't know if that makes any sense, and even if it does you may not be like that. Anyway, just something I thought I'd add. And im SO glad that you and Tom are becoming better friends. That is really awesome news. [red2330]
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2004-10-12 19:25:30 |
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Sleep is So Hard to Come By
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Hey, I know what you mean about friends always seeming to get the guys. I mean, most people tell me that I'm the prettiest among my friends (which I doubt is true), but I'm so shy that I can't do anything about it. Anywayyy, thanks for the comment!! Take care :) [Black Black Rose]
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2004-10-12 14:14:22 |
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Sleep is So Hard to Come By
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you ARE BEAUTIFUL, and i want to hump you!!! [SecondClassHoe]
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2004-10-11 15:51:44 |
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WHEEEEEEEE!!!!
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Yeah perverts like that are just nerds that have broken computers so they can't cyber anymore so they take out their sexual frustration on real people. It's sad. Becareful eh and no you being slightly turned on isn't bad I've had people say that to more gruesome poems than that. lol. [Broken Fingers]
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2004-10-10 16:00:05 |
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WHEEEEEEEE!!!!
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Wow! It looks like I have some major catchup to do on your life! :) I'm back! [Elisheva]
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2004-10-09 19:39:02 |
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WHEEEEEEEE!!!!
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Awww, Tom sounds so cute! It's adorable that he walked you home :) But the whole serial groper thing is scary stuff! Be careful! Take care :) [Black Black Rose]
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2004-10-08 13:52:25 |
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WHEEEEEEEE!!!!
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How freaky. How have you been? I hope school's going well for you, I'm in college now myself. IT sucks!!!! [Downcastskies]
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2004-10-07 18:52:54 |
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WHEEEEEEEE!!!!
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scary shit man thats been happening out in boston too [shroeder]
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2004-10-07 14:06:39 |
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WHEEEEEEEE!!!!
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Yay for Tom walking you home :) See you are becoming more relaxed around guys considering how easily you talk to Tom, that's definitely a good thing! That sounds scary that there is some perverted man lurking around your campus, I hope they find him soon. Anyhow, enjoy the rest of your week and FEEL BETTER! [coffee_mug]
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2004-10-07 08:26:22 |
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Hey, thanks for the birthday wish! I know exactly what you mean about the whole guy-making-the-move-on-the-girl thing. I'm not a feminist, but I do believe that guys and girls are totally equal... Yet, in this situation, I still think the guy should do the dirty work! Anyway, good luck with everything. Take care :) [Black Black Rose]
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2004-10-06 15:26:16 |
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Hm.
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It sounds like you've been a little happier lately and that's good. It is always nice for the guy to make the first move but sometimes us females forget the fact that sometimes guys are just as shy and unsure as we are. I think that if you asked him for coffee he'd be flattered and would say yes, but this is a no pressure suggestion thing because it's totally up to you and how you feel/think :) Yay for talking to someone about your questionings. I think most people go through a point in their life where they question their sexuality...it's just part of growing up. I hope you're having a great week! OH! And I hope it's ok, I added you to my MSN. [coffee_mug]
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2004-10-06 10:02:44 |
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Hm.
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that is nothing shameful about been a bisexual. Most gals I know are pretty bisexual even my gal sometime drool at girls so it should be okay. Dun worry and thanks for your concern over me. i saw your regards at my gal's (and my) journal. Youa re such a sweet little thing. [Storm Guardian]
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2004-10-06 09:58:19 |
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Hm.
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::huggles tightly:: hang in there!! ^_^ [MakenZero]
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2004-10-05 23:21:34 |
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you kow what - sometimes we can't believe in ourselves adn we need to hear positive thoughts from outside sources. there isn't a body on this earth that wasn't meant to be here, there isn't a person here whose life isn't about something, who lacks meaning. we are all beautiful creatures, because we are amazing..you have to find that in yourself - and until you do, outside voices will remind you [Miss Jingles]
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2004-10-03 23:20:22 |
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YEY! I am soo happy... this is turning out to be really good. It keeps getting better, and yall are growing! See? If you keep it up good things will come. Go you! [red2330]
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2004-09-30 20:01:16 |
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I know it's hard to believe what I type to you every comment and if you want me to stop typing it I will...I don't believe it about myself, it's hard sometimes. That's fantastic that you and "Ethan" are talking more! Yay for mentioning the concert to him, does that mean the two of you will be going together? I mean you mentioned it, that's step one, now maybe just casually ask him if he wants to go? From what you write he definitely sounds interested in you, I mean guys just don't look at girls that they don't like. Good luck! [coffee_mug]
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2004-09-30 07:23:47 |
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guess who i saw!!
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plz go to surveygirl's diary . thx :) [Anonymous]
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2004-09-28 22:34:24 |
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guess who i saw!!
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I'm the exact same way! It's not even funny how shy I am around guys, especially the ones I like. So if you're lame, I am too. And by the way, you're the only other person I know who says, "Holy hell!" Good job :) [Black Black Rose]
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2004-09-28 18:35:54 |
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guess who i saw!!
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plz go to surveygirl's diary [Anonymous]
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2004-09-28 05:02:45 |
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guess who i saw!!
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Yay that's good that you said hey to him, now the next step is to work on talking to him when you see him outside of work...maybe something that will help you to talk to him is if you pretend that he is in his underwear when you see him! haha I don't know! You need to work on the confidence thing :D Oh and to answer your question I'm moving in this weekend! :) Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT AND YOU ARE BEATUIFUL! (It's time you started believing me!!) [coffee_mug]
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2004-09-27 20:36:00 |
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guess who i saw!!
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Get some courage girl!! I don't know what else to tell ya! [red2330]
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2004-09-27 19:17:39 |
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really?? AGAIN?!
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First of all, I saw the Forgotten today with Shon and Barb... thats such a coincidence. Anyway, if you feel like you are missing out then GO. Join the parties... Im sure you know where they are so just show up and stike a conversation with a friendly looking person. Make a comment about their clothes or something, anyway to start talking. Meet new people. Maybe ask Tom if he knows of any parties next weekend because your schedule is open. He might know of one and even ask if youd like to join. You will never know if you don't put yourself out there and start doing things on your own. If you don't, then you will regret it for the rest of your life. College is when you are supposed to go out and have fun, get crazy, and do the college thing. Take advantage of that fact, and do it!! I really wish you luck on everything. [red2330]
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2004-09-26 21:25:43 |
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really?? AGAIN?!
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We all constantly want things like that. You're just honest enough to admit it, and I respect you for that. How was The Forgotten? I've been thinking about seeing it, but I'm broke. See? Another good thing about having a guy. He pays for your movies. Thanks for the comment. It's nice to know I'm not the only abstract thinker around. [Black Black Rose]
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2004-09-26 17:34:44 |
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really?? AGAIN?!
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You're at a time in your life when you feel the need to experiment and you want that soft place to fall that you haven't found yet. Maybe you should tell your friend Rachel about the feelings you are having and see what happens, maybe once you validate them you won't feel like you do anymore. As far as the weekends go, they are only as fun as you make them. If you want to go out to a party THEN GO! I know it's super hard to do things by yourself, but you should try it sometime, it could be fun. Have you asked that Tom guy out for coffee yet, huh? huh? :P You can find something to do on the weekends, you just need to look a little harder! Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! [coffee_mug]
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2004-09-26 08:35:33 |
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really?? AGAIN?!
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Hello, fellow diarist. I have made a group that teens may join informally as friends. If you are interested, please read my diary. Any comments/suggestions are appreciated since this is my first time doing this.
Thanks :)
ps - If you think anyone you know would be interested, you're free to pass this on. [Group]
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2004-09-26 02:59:16 |
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really?? AGAIN?!
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Oh darling I'm so sorry. [MakenZero]
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2004-09-26 01:30:59 |
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just don't know
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Maybe you should wait and take some more time to think this whole thing thru and find out for sure before you "come out" and possibly realize later on that you were straight all along. Best of luck to you... [pixie_stardust]
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2004-09-26 00:58:43 |
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just don't know
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What your family and friends think is important, but you have to be true to yourself. Don't change yourself for them, and don't suppress who you are. [Black Black Rose]
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2004-09-25 23:51:30 |
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just don't know
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I sort of agree with your mom. I know a select few girls at my school, some of whom graduated already, but in the past year they have "come out". And I know it wasn't true. The only reason they did so was because its "popular" right now. When they are grown up and out of college, they will realize that they arent gay or bi, and it was just something they went through in that part of their life. They aren't hurting anyone by exploring that side of their sexuality... so I guess its fine that do all that. This is just something you've got to figure out for yourself, and find out where you stand on the matter. [red2330]
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2004-09-25 20:07:06 |
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just don't know
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all i can suggest is talking to your friend you reall ythink is bisexual and likes you. Then take it from there. Thats all i can think of now at this moment [Broken Fingers]
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2004-09-24 15:08:21 |
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just don't know
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Perhaps you are bisexual, but you have a stronger desire to be with men than women and even if you did come out, and then later down the road married a man you're still entitled to feel the way you do. If you don't think your friends would react well to you comming out, then perhaps now is not the time to do so. It's really up to you and how you feel. Best of luck with figuring things out. Did you ask Tom out yet?? HUH? :P Rememember: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! [coffee_mug]
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2004-09-24 07:36:33 |
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Workin with the Eth-Meister
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Yay for working with "Ethan" again! If you know you're sending out the wrong vibe then how about trying to send out the right one. Or you could just get really brave and one of these nights when you're walking home and are near the CUB ask him if he wants to stop for a drink. You could do that. I know you can! You're not a saddist for laughing when your friend hit her head, I'd think that's funny to! haha Thanks for all your information on the jaw surgery and stuff, big help :) YOU ROCK! Well I hope you have an awesome rest of your week!! Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! (make it your goal this week to ask "Ethan" out for a drink...just casually!) [coffee_mug]
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2004-09-23 07:43:49 |
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So Long
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whatever kendall, you SAW him reaching for that paper and you went after his hand. i know, cuz he told me... [SecondClassHoe]
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2004-09-21 00:08:00 |
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So Long
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That's good that the storm didn't end up doing very much damage. Yay for you and the Tom guy talking more, I'll keep my fingers crossed for ya that things continue to get better with him. And yep I know it'll be hard to maintain the weight, it is a healthy weight for me, I checked my BMI and I'm still within the range...I do expect to gain some back, I guess I just don't want all of it back, know what I mean? Glad to hear all is well! Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT AND YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! [coffee_mug]
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2004-09-20 17:09:21 |
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So Long
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Whew, I was getting scared that all of my favorites had deserted their diarys. I think that those are the two worst things that can happen when you like a guy... either he already has a girlfriend, or one of your friends has already "claimed" him, or stated she likes him, which means to everyone else, back off. Ahh thats such a downer. Thats pretty cool though, that your starting to talk to the library guy, Tom. I hope yall become good friends, then who knows what else! ttyl [red2330]
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2004-09-20 17:05:47 |
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Why the f***?
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hehehe my name is brad wink wink. Yeah I have a gf but it looks like it might be over today :( Anyway when im alone and have no one to cuddle or fuck I pet my cat sometiems when i pet her she purrs it's the neatest thing. Remember if a guy doesn't like you its because he's really a nuclear bran muffin in disguise remember that. [Broken Fingers]
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2004-09-17 13:12:23 |
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Why the f***?
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Thats not a good thing that your friends are holding you back from what you want to do. Maybe you can convince just one of them to tag along with you and goto a party. They don't have to drink, just be there for some moral support. And maybe you'll start to meet some new people who you can hang out with and goto parties with. Your friends shouldn't keep you from doing what you want. Just explain to them how you feel, and if they're good friends, they should understand. Nothing will happen with these crushes unless you make it happen. Just start by simply talking to them, introduce yourself and ask how their day is going. Who knows, you may end up not liking some of them, or even better, you may establish some relationships. The sooner you do this, the better. You've got to start somewhere. Good luck with everything, and I hope thinsg start to work out for ya. [red2330]
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2004-09-12 12:46:35 |
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Why the f***?
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I guess it's a good thing that your friends are standing up for themseleves in that they don't party, but do they forget that just because you go to a party it doesn't mean you have to drink?? You can go and have a perfectly good time even if you're not drinking...it's really just about the social experience and meeting new people. As for the library guy, perhaps he has clued in that you're just shy...guys aren't quite as dumb as everyone thinks. With Kim going and talking to that guy for you, I know this might sound mean, but tell her to not do that for you, only because you seem to think she's so much better looking than you and you don't want her to get the guys all excited only to find out its for you (and for some reason you think they'd be dissappointed - most likely not true)...anyhow, I had a friend like that in University and she was the one who wouldn't talk to the guys, so when we were at the bar, I'd be like give me a beer and I have no fear haha it was great just to go to random guys and talk to them. Guys like it when you approach them...they really do! Best of luck with library guy! As for the whole being held thing, there's nothing wrong with it. You just need that in your life right now. It's obvious that you need a new experience someone other than your friends (although they might be great) to hang out with sometimes. There is a guy for you, I promise, and he'll come along soon enough. I think that once you find the right guy, everything will just fall into place, like with the whole not wanting to be touched. Well I hope you found something to do this past weekend. Have a wonderful start to your week tomorrow and SUCK IT UP and talk to the library guy at work, ask him out for a coffe - you could start with something like, "I'm kinda shy and not very good at these things, but would you like to grab a coffee somtime?" The worst he can say is no and that if for some reason he says no, it's just because you're meant to be with someone better :) Remember, you have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND YOU ARE WORTH IT! Go get library guy! (I want updates on this when I get out of the hospital :P) [coffee_mug]
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2004-09-12 08:06:57 |
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Wow!!
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Awesome, you met a hottie. Where do you work now?? I worked with a hottie this summer and it definitly makes the job a lot easier haha. Thats a good idea to start going to the gym. I LOVE to work out, it gives me such a high. Once your done, you feel so great and you feel like you've just accomplished a lot. I hope you keep it up, and its great that you've got friends to go with, that always helps. [red2330]
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2004-09-09 18:34:56 |
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Wow!!
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YAY! Here's a tip for the whole going to the gym thing three days a week, even if you don't feel like going MAKE YOURESLF GO...because if you force yourself to go even on days you don't really feel like being there, then you won't fall out of routine and you'll definitely reap the benefits and in the end you'll feel better that you made yourself go. That's good that you work with a great looking guy, that should make your evenings go by faster :) Just keep being wonderful you and maybe the two of you will start hanging out outside of work. Go Kendall! Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! [coffee_mug]
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2004-09-09 06:30:48 |
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Wow!!
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its a sign, molest him. It could be a good plan. [Broken Fingers]
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2004-09-08 23:44:33 |
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Wow!!
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i have to say i really enjoy your journal - you write very well, cheers! :) [TanManMighty]
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2004-09-08 23:28:46 |
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In My Room
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Let's get one thing straight here missy YOU ARE NOT A LOSER! Tell yourself that..."I AM NOT A LOSER"!! You need to get that through your head. If you don't like the way you look DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! I don't mean to get harsh with you here, but you sound just like me before I started walking. I know sometimes it's easier said than done, but if you don't like something find a way to change it. If you want to go out and get drunk then go do that. Maybe in one of your classes just start talking to the person beside you and work on building a friendship with them. Who is "we" that doesn't drink? Have you thought about bringing up with your friends that you should all just go out one night and drink? I dunno. Or maybe one night play some drinking games and then head to the bar. Either way you need to start finding a way to get out and do the things you want to do. College should be a fun experience and you should not have to be bored. I think that if you want something bad enough you'll find a way to make it work. I may not have ever met you, but I would bet anything that if you put your mind to it you can accomplish anything you want! YOU CAN DO ANYTHING YOU SET YOUR MIND TO! I hope that some of what I've written is starting to sink in and that you believe me when I write this at the end of every comment...YOU ARE WORTH IT AND YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! [coffee_mug]
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2004-09-07 20:24:15 |
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In My Room
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kendall, i will get accepted there and we will have all KINDS of collegeillregretitinthemorning fun! [SecondClassHoe]
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2004-09-06 10:56:50 |
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In My Room
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Ever though about joining a sorority? You'd meet a lot of new people, and get drunk all the time haha. But I don't know, sororitys arent for everyone, and they are also on the expensive side... blah. And don't worry about what Kim's sister thinks about you, I mean, id she really that important. Im sure she isn't perfect either. If you want to get drunk, then go out and do it. Im sure you could find a party somewhere on campus on the weekend, and im sure there would be kegs there. Drag a friend along and go drink. Do something out of the ordinary for a change. Hope things start to look up! [red2330]
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2004-09-06 00:06:01 |
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In My Room
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oh no! nothing to drink! :( [theperplexed]
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2004-09-05 20:13:47 |
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All I Want Is a Little Shut-Eye
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I hate when I can't fall asleep. I usually resort to sleeping pills though if I know I just won't be sleeping anytime soon. Glad to hear you've been having fun! [red2330]
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2004-08-31 20:40:16 |
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All I Want Is a Little Shut-Eye
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I hope you got some sleep! To bad you were feeling so sick, maybe it's because you were so tired that you felt so sick? I dunno! Hope all is well! Glad to hear you're having fun :) Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! [coffee_mug]
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2004-08-31 06:15:26 |
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All I Want Is a Little Shut-Eye
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hope you get some sleep really. Take care. ^_^ [MakenZero]
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2004-08-31 01:02:00 |
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Woo!
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It sounds like you've definitely had a good weekend. See you can talk to guys :P You talked to the Jeremy guy that you sat down with and what about this Mike guy that's in your group? And you don't know if the Jeremy guy had a girlfriend or not, so really I think you just need to work on boosting that confidence a little to work on talking to more guys. What I used to do, well at least during my first year of university, is my friend and I would go to the bar and I'd have like 2-3 drinks and then I'd go talk to guys..haha great experience :) You'd be surprised at how nice guys are once you approach them :) I hope you find/found something fun to do with your Sunday! Rememeber: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! [coffee_mug]
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2004-08-29 11:57:58 |
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Back at SHIP!
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are you from PA originally? dreads are mad hot. [shroeder]
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2004-08-28 15:09:50 |
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Back at SHIP!
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Yay, you're back at school :) When you wrote about the boy looking through the crack in your door and you saying he left because you weren't pretty enough probably isn't true...you should instead try and be thinking that he was intimidated by how HOT you are and didn't have the nerve to talk to you! :D Too bad they changed your cafeteria, perhaps they're on some big health kick? Hmm what else...nothing I can think of really. Hope you enjoy your first weekend back. You are NOT a loser. Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT AND YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! [coffee_mug]
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2004-08-28 14:27:00 |
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Late Night Ramblings
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You can lose the 5lbs if you want, no problem! :) Just do the healthy eating thing and exercise and you'll be all set. That's to bad that your friends are disappointed that you aren't going to get to spend as much time with them, but you need to do what works for you. About the falling hard for guys thing, that's ok...you'll find a guy when it's time, no worries. Maybe don't ask the guys if they're single when you meet them, just assume they're all taken and maybe you'll be fine...who knows! Good luck getting all your packing and what not done! Have an awesome Friday! Rememeber: YOU ARE WORTH IT AND YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! :D [coffee_mug]
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2004-08-26 06:52:48 |
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Late Night Ramblings
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you are way too obsessed with that movie... [SecondClassHoe]
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2004-08-26 03:03:09 |
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Garden State
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Can't say I've seen that movie...maybe I should check it out. Yay for colouring books they're so much fun! :) Enjoy your last four days before you go back to school. Not sure what else to write. Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! [coffee_mug]
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2004-08-25 21:30:54 |
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Garden State
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kendall. you are a freaking DORK! but... i have coloring books. EVEN a barbie one!!! i know your jealous... [SecondClassHoe]
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2004-08-24 22:47:04 |
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I am the QUEEN
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you have so much energy :) [SecondClassHoe]
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2004-08-23 11:51:00 |
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I am the QUEEN
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next time aunty pats the tummy yell out 'I'm the Queen! Kendalls the queen' and see how she reacts :) [Miss Jingles]
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2004-08-22 19:29:48 |
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I am the QUEEN
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I find that when it comes to older people, who are often family memebers, they are very blunt. They think that by telling you you don't need things that it helps you, when really you just need support. I mean it probably would've been better if she had said something like "let's go for a walk". I do have to agree though it's quite annoying when people state the obvious things you already know about yourself. I know this might be hard to do but DO NOT let anyone influence your decision about the other two surgeries. The thing you want to remember is that you don't want to regret the decision you make. IF the surgeries are going to be a long term help then I would say definitely get them, if they are just cosmetic then it's totally up to you and how you feel about yourself. As for your weight gain, if you don't want to get as big as you were in middle school/ early highschool then do something about it. I found that was my biggest obstacle. It was so much easier to complain then to get off my lazy butt and do something about it. I promise you that if you start walking, even just 15 mins a day, you'll start to feel so much better about yourself. You said your gym has an eliptical trainer, that's perfect to walk on if there is no treadmill. Another thing that will help is to always try and take the stairs and any time you can walk, make sure you do. Or maybe when you're watching t.v. on commercials do like 20 sit-ups, or run on the spot until your show is back on...anything to get active, you'll gain tons of benefits from even the smallest changes. Just remember the way you eat definitely plays a role to. Best of luck in your endeavours to lose weight! YOU CAN DO IT!! Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT AND YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! [coffee_mug]
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2004-08-22 07:51:14 |
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Good Day
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Thanx for commenting on my diary. The breakfast Club is an INCREDIBLE movie...hehe. [Anorexicgirl26]
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2004-08-20 18:14:38 |
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Good Day
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Oh and I love Sixteen Candles more than Breakfast Club...it just makes you gush girliness lol!! [MotherAlli]
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2004-08-19 20:07:55 |
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Good Day
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I love The Breakfast Club...never fails to tickle my funny bone. :) I understand that it's their place to vent too...it just gets annoying when it seems like everyone has the SAME story "oh nobody likes me...if I died nobody would care.." I guess I went thru the same phase and nobody thought it was a big deal then...and I lived thru it...so I guess I don't see the big deal with it now. Sounds kinda mean but it's true. It's not like I'm dead somewhere because Bobby Smith didn't like me back. I guess I never had a way of venting it...people older than me would have thought the same thing lol. I don't mind drama...as long as it's GOOD drama. :) [MotherAlli]
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2004-08-19 20:05:53 |
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Good Day
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Hey! It's starlight_starbright under my new name. Just thought I'd let ya know I decided to make a new diary on here. Sounds like you had a good day. Maybe you should go back to that restaraunt with the cute waiter and leave him your phone number on the bill hahaha [coffee_mug]
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2004-08-19 06:52:50 |
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Good Day
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Haha, I love waiters because you can mess with them while your at the restaurant and you know you wont see them again. Hott ones are the best. [red2330]
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2004-08-18 22:18:40 |
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Good Day
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They need to remake that movie!!! It was great and should be done again!!!! ^_^ [MakenZero]
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2004-08-18 21:46:59 |
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Waaahhh!
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Those dreams do sound super scary! What might help is looking at/reading something happy before you go to bed and then those thoughts will be in your head and hopefully help to steer your dreams in the right direction. As far as the whole weight thing goes you will lose it when you are ready. What it will take is for you to say to yourself, ok I've had enough of this feeling sorry for myself and gaining weight, I want to lose weight. You need to commit yourself to it. It requires you to exercise every day no matter what you may feel like and everytime you think it's not working, don't give up, just keep going because you will see results. The best thing I can suggest for losing weight is walking. Yes walking. When I first got my pedometer all those months ago I made sure I walked 10,000 steps a day and ate a healthy diet and then I lost 5lbs in just a few weeks. I've stopped wearing my pedometer now, but get up every morning to go for a 20minute walk. I can see results already and I've only been doing it for two and a half weeks. You have to want to lose weight/tone up for no one but yourself. If you're eating because you're bored, maybe try and replace the eating with exercising or reading a book. Something else that will help is if today, or when you read this, go through your clothes and take out ALL the clothes that are to big and give them away. That way you have no where to go but down. Then for every milestone you reach in your weight loss give yourself a reward. It might help if you have someone to be accountable to as well. Find an online support group for weight loss, or email me, I'm always here to listen. Whatever you do, don't give up. Keep believing (that looks wrong) in yourself that you can do it, and you will! Most importantly don't forget YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-08-18 07:36:24 |
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Waaahhh!
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Thats a crazy dream. I dream every single night and I can always remember it... not everyone can remember what they dream. Anywho... thanks for the comment. Everyone always tells me I look young haha, but when I get dressed up and fix myself I think I look a little older, but thanks ~~ ttyl [red2330]
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2004-08-17 23:47:46 |
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House of Eagles
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and what's wrong with being in a christian home???? lol :) my grandma is really really super christian too and it's almost like walking into a church going to her house. and oh gosh i think i would slap a kerry sticker over the bush sticker on that car! i'm so mad i won't get to vote in this election and have to wait another 4 years! [silverstarlight]
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2004-08-17 20:01:54 |
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Pictures and Doctors Appointment
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If the surgeries are going to help fix the way you breathe or something important like that, I think you should totally get them. However, if they are strictly cosmetic I guess it would really be up to you and how you feel about yourself. Seeing your pictures I think you look wonderful. I honestly do not see a problem with your nose. The thing you have to remember though, is this is for YOU, it's about how YOU feel about yourself, about making you feel happy and more confident...remember that these surgeries are for no one else but YOU and only YOU can make the final decision. I know it's probably a lot to think about, but I'm sure you'll end up making the right decision. Just go with what you honestly feel on this one. Anyhow, hope all else is well. Keep smiling. And always remember: YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL (I saw the pictures that prove it) and YOU ARE WORTH IT!!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-08-15 16:54:37 |
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Pictures and Doctors Appointment
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I would definitly wait on making the choice of having another surgery. But think long term... you may regret something years from now so do whatever you feel is right. Only you can make the decision. The pics were cute, and I agree with the comment above, you should have just walked up and asked to take a pic together. No harm done, next time you have to do it!! [red2330]
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2004-08-12 22:17:20 |
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Pictures and Doctors Appointment
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you just had surgery i think it's a bit early for your dr. to be asking you to consider more..live in your skin for now - and then, if you feel like it, bring it up again in six months....look at yourself then and think about it :) Next time, go up to the hot boy , tell him he;s hot and ask for a pic - you'll never see him again, and i bet it would make him smile ! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-08-12 18:29:32 |
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Pictures and Doctors Appointment
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my cousin has been through all those, too. shes had like 30 in all or something... but its up to youuuuu! if you like how it is now then... yeah im too hot too type :/ [SecondClassHoe]
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2004-08-12 18:23:11 |
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Pictures and Doctors Appointment
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i love your pics!!! i am going to have to get a live journal because another one of my friends here at MDD has one too. you and your friend caitlin are such cuties! do you want to get your nose done again? i think it looks great in your pictures, but there aren't any really close up pics that i see. ~nikki~ [silverstarlight]
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2004-08-12 17:48:45 |
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All Hail Hot Boys
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oh no, your car is still broken! that stinks!! you are lucky that school starts for you late. i can't wait till i'm i ncollege!! :) ~nikki~ [silverstarlight]
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2004-08-11 10:56:33 |
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All Hail Hot Boys
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Sounds like you're having fun!! YAY!!! [MotherAlli]
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2004-08-11 02:15:09 |
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All Hail Hot Boys
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Now if you could only get up the courage to talk to these hot boys things would be good :) That's funny that you took pictures of them. I hope they turn out well for you. I have decided I will start another diary and if you're interested in continuing reading about my not so exciting life, I'll comment in your diary sometime with my new name. Thanks so much for your great comment in my last entry under this name. Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT AND YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL (if you weren't good looking, why would these guys be looking at you? :P) [starlight_starbright]
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2004-08-10 22:07:28 |
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All Hail Hot Boys
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HeY WhAt's uP?!? [i DonT WaNNa LoSe iT]
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2004-08-10 20:59:44 |
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My past 5 Days
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the village is no good? darn it...i wanted to see it because i hadn't heard a thing about it! i guess i'll knock it off my list then. i was hoping it was scary!!! ~nikki~ [silverstarlight]
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2004-08-07 09:26:58 |
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My past 5 Days
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Why, yes, we are........ *smiles* [SPC_1]
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2004-08-07 00:05:23 |
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My past 5 Days
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it sounds like your having a fun summer.how long was camp on for? i've never done it before, but i went with my best friend jamie, to his old campsite in new york last summer.he used to work there.and we had a laugh! [mysteriousgirl21]
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2004-08-06 17:14:23 |
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My past 5 Days
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I read your entry earlier and didn't have time to comment. Perhaps I should've re-read it before I began to leave this comment :) It sounds like you're having a productive summer so far, hopefully you get in a few more weeks of things to do before you go back to school. Next time I'll leave a better comment! Rememeber: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-08-05 21:26:57 |
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My past 5 Days
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i love sharks, but i am scared of them...it's a strange phenomenon every time i see them... [Miss Jingles]
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2004-08-05 11:15:06 |
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My past 5 Days
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I felt the same way about that movie...I rushed to see it on the night it opened cuz I love scary movies and then thru the last of it I was so dumbfounded that I didnt even listen I just stared. I mean come on.....who does things like that? I have to give credit...IWAS NOT EXPECTING IT.......but I didn't like the feeling I had walking away from it either. I felt cheated...almost like I deserved my money back. Grrrr. Anyways....I never thanked you for the comments in my journal but thank you now. Take care...and ttys. [ashjake2]
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2004-08-05 00:27:09 |
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Now that camp is over you've got nothing to do.. thats how Im going to feel when we close the pool for the summer. When do you go back to school? I haven't been to the aquarium in SO long. Maybe I should have gone this summer.. just to go. Glad to hear that you've had fun the past few days. [red2330]
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2004-08-04 18:12:01 |
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the kids DO get worse and worse, i don't know if it's because patience wears thin or what...but the ones at the beginning are always better then the ones at the end! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-08-03 12:39:37 |
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Oh my god... The Lovely Bones is the BEST book ever. It is so good, and you would cry your eyes out. You realllllly should look into reading that book. I had to read it for school, and for once we had an awesome book to read, most school assigned books suck but not this one. You really should read it, even if you arent a reader, you will like this book. God its just so good.... okay lol I sound crazy but I feel very strongly about it. Later [red2330]
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2004-08-02 23:20:29 |
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I hope that you get another vehicle soon. I can't imagine not having a vehicle after having my own for 4 years now. I feel your pain! :P Yay for camp being almost over. I'm sure the break from it will be good for you. Well hope you enjoyed your book! Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT AND YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-07-30 16:32:49 |
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thats my favorite book! alive seibold is such a goood writer! [SecondClassHoe]
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2004-07-30 14:51:57 |
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I want to see this play..... ;) [Sentimental Guy]
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2004-07-29 20:56:07 |
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we are all waiting for our Chinese food to come :) can't the family combine the 3 'non functional cars' and make one super vehicle? [Miss Jingles]
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2004-07-29 14:26:20 |
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Mmm chinese food!! I hope all goes through with your loan so that you can get a vehicle that works! Have you thought about leasing a vehicle? I mean it might be worth your while because then if anything went wrong with it it would be under warranty...you would however have to get your parents to co-sign for it. However, that mustang sounds pretty nice :D Either way...good luck with the whole car thing. Yay for camp being almost over, I think I'd want it to end to if the kids were bad! Hmm not sure what else to write. Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-07-28 07:35:19 |
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I hope that you can get the loan, so that you can purchase yourself a new car, that would be nice..... ;) [Sentimental Guy]
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2004-07-28 07:05:26 |
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mmm Chinese food, yum. I hope you can get a new car, thats always exciting. [red2330]
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2004-07-27 23:40:26 |
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This One's a Long One
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Dreams, mine used to all be happy, but lately I have been having a lot of nightmares, ever since my wreck. [SPC_1]
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2004-07-26 18:10:20 |
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This One's a Long One
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First off let me apologize for not commenting in awhile...your diary is the last on my favs list thanks to alphabetical order and well I never see you for some reason...tho I always love your comments and seriously enjoy reading about your life...makes me feel terrible to see like 9 entries that I've missed and then I just sit there going "no way she's updated that many times since i read last" ..well..MDD doesnt lie lol. Second...that game you're talking about I've tried to play but I never got into it and quit trying to understand it when everyone was having the hardest time explaining it to me lol...guess I'm a bit dense at times. :) *HUGS* [MotherAlli]
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2004-07-26 02:54:29 |
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That sucks about your car. Hopefully it won't cost you to much to get it fixed. It definitely sounds like you ended up having a good time with your friends though, so that must've made up for some of the crappiness of the car situation. Hmmm not sure what else to say! I hope all is well with you. Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! (try not to be so hard on yourself :) [starlight_starbright]
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2004-07-25 21:18:47 |
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Aw, that stinks about your car!!! But at least you got to see your friends and stuff! :) ~Nikki~ [silverstarlight]
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2004-07-25 17:44:11 |
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God..not again!!!!
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Me, I where size 36 jeans, and am in the process of re-gaining weight that I do not need..... ;) [SPC_1]
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2004-07-20 07:01:38 |
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God..not again!!!!
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weight loss is a trickey road for some of us - and i'm right there with you - it can be very difficult to keep motivated when you don't see instant result - Even smart gals like us, who know what it takes to lose, seemingly have some mental barrier keeping us in the current body size. All iknow is that we can do it, but first we will have to find out why it is we keep ourselves this way - it's hard, but i think we can do it [Miss Jingles]
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2004-07-19 13:30:59 |
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God..not again!!!!
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I don't want to tell you what to do or anything, but it definitely sounds like you need some help in this whole weight loss department thing to get to a healthy weight. The first thing I would suggest doing is just going into yahoo and typing in BMI calculator and find out what a healthy weight is for your height. Then I would highly recommend getting Dr.Phils The Ultimate Weight Loss Solution book, it will help you get through/and lose weight. It has 7 keys in it and it helps you figure out why you're so attached to food and all that kinda jazz...I really truly think it would be good for you. Just remember that whatever I type on here is just my opinion and by no means am I trying to offend you. I can honestly say I know how hard it is to hear from OTHER people what they think is wrong with you and sometimes those people are right. They do see a different side of us that we don't really get, because are thinking is so warped. Anyhow I would get the Dr.Phil book because you kinda sound like you're on the road to an eating disorder and although I don't "know" know you I would be very sad to hear if that happened to you. Best of luck with everything. I'm sure you're sick of me saying this by now, but remember YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL and YOU ARE WORTH IT! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-07-19 06:04:13 |
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God..not again!!!!
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hi there! i have a request from "surveys are fun" to ask all my faves and a few other people to go to that diary.
i wonder if you would take up that offer. see you around. [Anonymous]
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2004-07-19 03:25:55 |
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God..not again!!!!
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Hmm maybe you should check out my diary sometime.. ;) I have eating disorders so it might interest you. I personally, would kill to be your weight.. *sigh* [unsatisfied]
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2004-07-19 00:32:59 |
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Call me an annoying EMO!
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don't do yourself down, girl.it isnt worth it! i suffered severely with depression myself and it is an awful thing to go through, but trust me, you get through it.i have. and now im full of confidence i never thought i had.im going to london in september, which i never thought i'd do! just goes to show that having confidence can make you feel tons better than ANY anti-depressants anyday! [mysteriousgirl21]
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2004-07-17 18:29:59 |
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Ok first things first...BREATHE! Take a moment and just breathe. Next you need to STOP with the negative thoughts!! You and I think so much alike when it comes to feeling like you've got no friends/no one likes you its scray! Next you need to get it through your head that there is NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU! The problem and at least this is what I think it is, is your lack of confidence. Think about what the other counsellors exude and even what the children exude and that is CONFIDENCE! I would bet that all the other counsellors and people you know have high self-esteem and high confidence, things that you lack. You just have to work on these things. They definitely take time to build up. Every time you start to think something negative you need to tell yourself to shut up, that it's probably not true and replace it with a positive thought. It is definitely not an easy thing to do. Another thing that helps is to try and stop caring what other people MIGHT be thinking. I mean just because you're in the same room as them, doesn't mean they're thinking about you. As for the birthday party, instead of thinking they invited you because they felt sorry for you (which is probably not true), I bet they invited you because they want the chance to get to know you better, you know, out of the work setting, in a more relaxed environment. They invited you so you could get to know more people, not so that you'd feel left out. As far as the directions they gave you go, perhaps they thought they were good directions and you should've spoke up and said you weren't really sure where it was, then they would've given you better ones. I know it is much easier for me to sit here and say what you should do than for you to put it into practice. But really you need to try and start thinking more positvely and things will start to change. Ok I'm done rambling I hope that some of what I have said helped. YOU ARE WORTH IT AND YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-07-17 08:07:41 |
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Call me an annoying EMO!
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PMS.....? Try depression, it sucks..... ;) And I am a "Manic Depressent", so it really sucks! [SPC_1]
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2004-07-16 23:46:09 |
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listen, its easy to feel hurt in a situation like that - but it happens, i'm a good person, i get a long with people and sometimes my girls choose other leaders to be with and it hurts, but you can't take it too personal - kids have no idea what they are doing in that department-- just breathe you way through it! dont' let yourself get down too muchthere Kendall, it's easy to get stuck in a rut - just smile and keep on trying! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-07-16 18:31:33 |
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Good Day
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do you use aim???? IF you do you should IM me! xptandplx! im always waaay boreddddd! [SecondClassHoe]
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2004-07-13 19:46:46 |
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I get paid to do nothing at my work but sit around and play cards lol. Its great. Thats so gross, the sex thing. I could never have sex in a house if I knew someone else was in there, sleeping or not. Who were the people having sex?? Anyway, Im sure your nose looks fine but I know what your talking about. After my 1st time, I didnt like it, so they did it again, I still hated it, and they did it for the third time. I still hate it, im beginning to be okay with it but it will never look the way i want it to. SO I know exactly what your saying. [red2330]
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2004-07-13 18:39:04 |
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Good Day
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Don't you love it when you get paid to socialize! WOO! lol As far as your nose goes, my theory is that it probably isn't as drastic as you thought it would be because it suits you so well. See maybe if the change was more drastic the nose wouldn't look good on your face at all. Just a theory. Glad to hear you had fun with your sister. I think it's a good plan for you to start hanging out with your cousin again, if you do the once a week thing it will give you both something to look forward to each week. Thanks for writing 'you're beautiful' at the end of the comment you left me, it definitely made my morning. I hope you enjoy the rest of your week. YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-07-13 06:46:47 |
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I wrote the letter last night. Thanks for the input. I already sent it out though. I know it may be harsh, but its how i've been feeling for years. And it's the truth. ~Nicole~ [Anorexicgirl26]
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2004-07-12 22:56:41 |
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oh god
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I think it would be appropriate to send him a sympathetic e-greeting or a sympathetic email. Right now what Dan needs is support from people who know him. It doesn't matter that you guys stopped talking to eachother so much and all that...I can almost guarantee that right now what he needs is someone to listen to him and support from people. Best of luck with this situation. Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-07-11 21:05:19 |
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oh god
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God that is soo horrible for him. I don't even know the kid and I feel awful. Hes going to go through a lot in the coming months. Theres nothing much you can do, just let him know that you'll be thinking about him, but its something he has to deal with on his own. God I cant even imagine my mom dying right now... Blah, I hope he is alright. [red2330]
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2004-07-11 18:22:56 |
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Well today sucked ASS
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Oy vey.......... :-( [SPC_1]
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2004-07-10 21:30:48 |
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Well today sucked ASS
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Yeah the swelling takes a while to go down, at least for me it did. Im glad you got it all off though, sorry to hear about you not feeling well. That really sucks but you made it through and your okay now, so its all good. Anyway I hope nothing else goes wrong!! [red2330]
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2004-07-09 21:49:24 |
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Well today sucked ASS
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*hugs* Sorry to hear about your bad day! Not to reinforce this, but yeah that really sucks that you passed out today. I hope that doesn't happen to you again anytime soon and that they can figure out what to do for it. I'm sure your nose looks BEAUTIFUL! Once the swelling goes down I'm sure you'll get used to it and really like the way it looks. Hmm I wanted to write something else and now I don't remember what. Sorry I don't have anything more helpful to write. Get well soon!! YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-07-09 21:44:27 |
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I'm Baaack!
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path to new, better things and maybe even a perception of yourself?? I hope so hunny ! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-07-08 18:38:02 |
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I'm Baaack!
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YAY! I'm happy to hear that your surgery went so well. If your mom and sister think your new nose looks good, than it truly must. I don't think they would tell you something like that about a big surgery like you had just to make you feel better. You'll have to get pictures when it's all healed up...you can send out before and afters! hehe Glad to hear all is well though. Hope your check up goes well on Friday. Enjoy the rest of your week with your new nose. REMEMBER: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-07-07 21:22:24 |
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I'm Baaack!
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Glad to hear it went well and I bet it looks great too. I didnt have to get my nose packed, I just had a little plastic cast each time going across the bridge. Yeah the blood is the worst part. It gets all dried and gross... ick. Hope you have a quick recovery! [red2330]
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2004-07-07 18:22:38 |
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I'm Baaack!
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i could never do that...it looks too painful [zethan]
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2004-07-07 14:24:28 |
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Last Day
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I'm praying for you!!! I know it will come out beautifully and I hope you get better really soon too! ~nikki~ [silverstarlight]
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2004-07-06 18:11:08 |
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Last Day
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I hope everything goes well! [MakenZero]
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2004-07-06 15:07:41 |
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Last Day
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i think we always imagine things worse then they will actually be, the pain will be nothing like you think it will be...You're gonna be fine, and you're going to start a whole new chapter of life, how exciting! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-07-06 14:05:56 |
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Last Day
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What kind of operation are you going todo? Good luck in whatever that is okay? Pain if something to make you feel good is definitely worthing. [Storm Guardian]
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2004-07-06 10:30:37 |
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WHOA good luck good luck good luck!! Yes the pain is crappy afterward BUT it doesnt last forever and the results do. Im sure you will look great and everything will work out. Those comments are awkward to listen to and react to, but at least you know the people around you care! ttyl [red2330]
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2004-07-05 22:09:42 |
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Last Day
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Best of luck with your surgery tomorrow, I hope that everything goes well. Hopefully they will give you some nice strong pain killers so you won't actually have to feel pain :) The after effects of the surgery will be well worth it in the end I am sure! Remember: YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL and YOU ARE WORTH IT! (you don't know how glad I was to read that you wrote that you were beautiful in this entry near the beginning!!) [starlight_starbright]
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2004-07-05 21:14:23 |
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my cousin had that a few times. im getting my boobs done soon. im really scared for after. but i want it so bad, so i hope its worth it :) tell me how it goes! [SecondClassHoe]
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2004-07-05 16:39:53 |
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Happy 4th!!
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I'd be quite surprised if this guy calls you. It has been my experience that when you meet a guy at a club and they ask for your number they usually don't call. Do you know how old this guy actually is? Or did he just look to old? I'm not saying you should give him a chance per se, but I think you should be open to meeting guys at clubs...I know that probably sounds terrible but I met my first boyfriend in University at the bar and things went well for a while until I really got to know him well, that's why you should always be friends with a guy before you become a couple. Whew I think that's enough of my blabbering on that subject. Anyhow...just in case you don't write again before your surgery I hope it goes well for you. Try to go in with no expectations because then when you see the end result you will more than likely be pleasantly surprised. Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-07-04 21:29:55 |
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Happy 4th!!
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Hah I hate that also. That happens to me too many times... some guy I do not find myself attracted to will hang all over me while im at a bar, for the whole night. I usually get one of my girlfriends to pull me away and act like she needs something. We have these special "get me the hell away from him" looks that are our signals. But I probably would have given that guy my number also... I always feel bad saying no to their face. Maybe once they call I might say something but I can never just say no when they ask lol. Anyway sounds like you had fun. Hope your surgery goes well and you arent in too much pain after ~~ good luck. [red2330]
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2004-07-04 21:06:10 |
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Happy 4th!!
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surgery for what? [SecondClassHoe]
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2004-07-04 17:08:12 |
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Happy 4th!!
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Awww...... clubbin'...... sounds a little like the Lounge! [SPC_1]
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2004-07-04 16:36:33 |
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Happy 4th!!
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oh i know that feeling, standing in the washroom taking your sweet time to do anything hoping quietly to yourself, tat they willl go away and you can carry on in your night without them..oh if only men knew what went on in our minds! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-07-04 15:26:58 |
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Old Friends
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It's always nice to catch up with old friends, isn't it? That's too bad about your friend Sara...it sounds like she needs to have an intervention and check herself into a rehab clinic. But who am I to say. I'm so nosy sometimes! Well I just felt like commenting and putting in my two cents...hopefully you're not to tired of me doing that yet HAHA Remember: You are WORTH it and You are BEAUTIFUL!!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-07-02 22:33:56 |
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Back Down the Bully To The Back of the Bus
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I'm sure you're surgery will go well. I can't believe that doctor told you that stuff. She does sound nutty. You can definitely lose the weight, not a problem. If you are really stuck, I think you should invest in the Dr. Phil Ultimate Weight Loss Solution book, or at least by a pedometer and try to walk 10,000 steps a day combined with healthy eating. I mean that's all I did (the second one) for like 6 weeks and I lost 5lbs. Then the key is to keep up the healthy eating and regular exercise. YOU CAN DO IT!!! If you feel like you need to vent about how frustrating it is trying to lose weight or want to talk about it, feel free to email me sometime. I'm sure you've got my email somewhere in one of your comments and if not, let me know and I'll give it to you. Well I think this will be all for now. I sincerly hope you have an awesome long weekend! YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-07-02 16:35:46 |
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Back Down the Bully To The Back of the Bus
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135 is so not fat!!!! how tall are you? i think your dr is on crack. :-p i will be sending a prayer for you to come through your surgery without a hitch! :) ~nikki~ [silverstarlight]
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2004-07-02 11:00:47 |
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Back Down the Bully To The Back of the Bus
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Oh yeah the link to the pictures didnt work... [red2330]
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2004-07-01 20:45:01 |
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Back Down the Bully To The Back of the Bus
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That us kind of rude, your doctor to tell you to loose weight. But then its always healthy, unless your already underweight. ttyl [red2330]
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2004-07-01 20:41:41 |
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I think that your rhinoplasty will be a great change for your life. I hope that it will help to boost your self-confidence, because you really should have more :) You are a beautiful girl! I'm sure everything will go fine with your surgery, because you're right, it is a totally routine thing now. I can't believe it is next week already. I hope you don't feel like crap for to long and that you don't get black eyes from the surgery. Have a great long weekend! Don't forget...YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-07-01 08:29:36 |
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closer
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Again good luck with the surgery. I had to goto my winter formal dance with a broken nose because the dance was like a week after I broke it. So I had the choice of either going to the dance with an ugly cast on my nose, or going with a broken one. I opted for the broken nose which was still bad, but not as noticeable as a white thing on my nose. I'd love to see pics!! ttyl. [red2330]
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2004-07-01 00:26:05 |
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Nose surgery, now there is where I have experience. I've had THREE. Yes, three. About two years ago I crashed my 4-wheeler in a ditch and broke my nose and wrist. After, over the course of a year and a half I had three nose surgeries to correct my nose back to normal or close to it. ITS HELL. The aftermath SUCKS your nose will be so tender for months after the surgery. I dont know exactly what your getting done but for me, it hurt so bad and I hated it. I dont mean to make you all worried or anything because your nose isnt broken like mine was, or i dont think yours is... but anyway Im sure it wont be as bad as mine. Just ask for a lot of painkillers, those are nice. I really hope your surgery goes well, seriously. I know what you have to go through. GOOD LUCK!! [red2330]
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2004-06-30 22:08:23 |
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High glucose levels are not uncommon in our society adn don't have to be diabetes, it can be an indication of a future problem, one that you can prevent by taking action now :) Don't stress just yet ;) [Miss Jingles]
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2004-06-30 13:26:00 |
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Maybe you don't really have diabetes and maybe if you do it will be the type that can be controlled just by your diet. Not everyone that is diabetic has to take medication to correct it. Sorry I'm not much more help on this subject here. I do know though that last time I went to the doctors she asked me a bunch of questions and said that if the blood test results came back negative that I either had an anxiety problem or was depressed, so maybe you're depressed or have an anxiety problem which would in fact elevate your levels. Ok done on that subject. Hopefully as the summer goes on you'll get to do more at the camp. I hope your surgery goes well for you to next week! Good luck with that. Well this comment is getting SUPER long I guess I should stop babbling. I hope everything starts to look up for you. Try not to stress as hard as that may be and remember...YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-06-29 21:40:01 |
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A PITBULL b****!
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this is the beginnning of a great story! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-06-29 11:32:58 |
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A PITBULL b****!
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;)..... Thanks for the smiles! [SPC_1]
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2004-06-26 22:51:51 |
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A PITBULL b****!
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Glad to hear that the other counsellors aren't so bad and that you'll porobably get along with them jsut fine :) That song does sound entirely strange...I guess people make anything into songs these days. To bad the shopping didn't go quite as planned, but at least you got some stuff :) REMMEBER: YOU ARE WORTH IT AND YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-06-26 06:11:41 |
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A PITBULL b****!
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...interesting... lol :) [MotherAlli]
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2004-06-26 00:57:34 |
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A PITBULL b****!
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Thats awesome that you got mixed drinks without being carded... I've always wanted to just try and ask for an alcoholic drink at a restaurant, but then if they asked for an ID I would feel so stupid and I would want to leave. Hmm.. anyway, I hate when I go shopping with someone and they either stay too long in a store or don't want to stay when I do. Sucks but oh well. Anyway, just thought Id comment ~~~Emily [red2330]
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2004-06-26 00:13:17 |
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A PITBULL b****!
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Hey i like the title of your diary ;) [unsatisfied]
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2004-06-25 23:36:07 |
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Trynna Run From That Dreaded Fist Beast
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I actually already work in my field, but not doing the architectural side, but rather the Civil-Engineering side of things. [SPC_1]
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2004-06-24 17:19:59 |
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Trynna Run From That Dreaded Fist Beast
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I love Tae Bo..it's building muscles, i bet anything! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-06-24 14:16:11 |
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Trynna Run From That Dreaded Fist Beast
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Thanks for the comment, it was nice! As to the US, and Mr. Bush, well, sorry, but what he wants goes against the Constitution, and thus wrong. [SPC_1]
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2004-06-22 22:11:28 |
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Trynna Run From That Dreaded Fist Beast
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I think that maybe the reason your shorts aren't looser is that you are gaining muscle mass. The other thing you might consider is to try a different exercise for your body. Maybe tae-bo isn't the best work-out you could be doing for your frame, perhaps you need to do some targeted exercises (like the crunches for your tummy) along with 30 mins of cardio 3x a week, something like fast walking/running/swimming...somethin gthat works your whole body and not just some of the muscle groups. Good for you on keeping up with the heatlhy eating and exercising though! Make sure that you are getting enough sleep along with this new healthy regimine or you won't get anywhere. Also don't forget to celebrate the small steps, like you said you lost 4lbs (go you!) why don't you go buy yourself that shirt you wanted or something...know what I mean? That kinda thing to keep yourself motivated. Congratulations on getting the job at the camp, I'm sure you'll make an awesome counsellor! Don't worry about what the other counsellors might think and that you won't fit in (as hard as that may be), just be your friendly-outgoing self and I'm sure everything will be fine! REMEMBER: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! Enjoy the rest of your week! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-06-22 21:48:29 |
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Uneventful Weekend
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you know - cats love to eat moths...perhaps you could borrow a kitty from someone? [Miss Jingles]
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2004-06-21 14:19:48 |
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Uneventful Weekend
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Ooops! I forgot to write something at the end of the comment I left for you...... YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! Tell yourself that every day, soon you'll start believing it :) [starlight_starbright]
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2004-06-20 21:20:16 |
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Uneventful Weekend
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Your weekend doesn't sound so uneventful, at least you did things opposed to sitting around your house doing NOTHING :) Ahh I forget what I was going to write. Hmmm. Oh! I remember. I'm not sure where you download your music from but kazaa is always a good place. The music I get from there is usually always fine, not the screechy scrambly songs :) I hope you have a great start to your week tomorrow. I'll hopefully have a more interesting comment next time! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-06-20 21:11:30 |
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Argh
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It sounds like you've hit a rough patch in your life. I felt the exact same way when I came home from school, in fact I still do sometimes. The thing to remember is that people do like you and sometimes you have to make the effort. I'm not saying that you never make the effort to get together with people, but like your friend Dominique for example, maybe you could ask her to go clubbing with you this weekend and then leave it up to her to decide if she wants to go with you, if she says no, then she's not much a friend to begin with and that's a sign that you should work on getting some new friends. As for this guy you're meeting on Thursday, I hope you're a) meeting him in a VERY public place or b) bringing someone with you..just safer that way :) As hard as it is, try not to stress so much about the surgery you have to have, at least you have a date for it...and you know what, if a guy is going to like you, he's going to have to like everything about you...ok so not absolutely everything, but if he can't get over the fact that you have to have surgery or what not, then he's not worth your time. I'm sure things will go fine at the meeting on Thursday, just promise yourself that you will go in with no expectations. Best of luck on the job front, I'll keep my fingers crossed for you that you get one soon. Ok this comment is getting SUPER long, I should stop rambling! I hope some of this made sense to you. Don't ever let anyone tell you you're not good enough...not even yourself. Learn to tell that little negative voice in your head to SHUT-UP and then replace those thoughts with positive ones. YOU ARE WORTH IT!!! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-06-16 06:05:15 |
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Argh
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Awe... ::hugs:: [MakenZero]
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2004-06-16 00:50:25 |
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I'm glad to hear you had such a great time with your friends this weekend. Congrats on starting to exercise again. Don't think negative things about it, can't remember exactly what you wrote, but it didn't sound to uplifting...you should be proud of yourself that you are starting to exercise again. If you want to know what a healthy weight is for you, might I suggest going to yahoo and typing in BMI calculator and then you can find out what is good for you. Best of luck with the weight loss, remember to keep up the exercising and to eat healthy. YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-06-15 18:31:51 |
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Packed in quite a bit in that entry, huh? Cool though. Say hi to Pophi and Spaz for me:) [Irol]
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2004-06-15 10:11:40 |
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......oh crap
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i think i would pronounce it POUffi..or PO-fi [Miss Jingles]
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2004-06-11 12:44:47 |
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That's to bad that your mom got mad at you. Perhaps she was just a little more on edge because of having to go to the doctors. I'm sure it will all be fine. Yay for fishy's! I have a little goldfish from Walmart (he's almost a year and a half old) named Zanatos :) I hope you have an awesome weekend with your friends!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-06-11 07:46:00 |
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......oh crap
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Oh did you see Conan yesterday. The a vagina puppet!!! LOL That was sooooo funny! "Um I'm guessing you use that for kid parties as well?" LMAO TOO FUNNY!! [MakenZero]
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2004-06-11 01:37:23 |
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New Found Asian-ness
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Oh I like those Beautiful Girl lyrics!!! I will have to go to that site and check it out. :) ~Nikki~ [silverstarlight]
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2004-06-09 13:50:15 |
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New Found Asian-ness
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Sometimes i have these increble - Irish pride days..I am celtic - woo-hoo! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-06-08 17:17:43 |
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New Found Asian-ness
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Those are really good lyrics. Glad you had a good time in Florida. That would be exciting to go and see your friends from school in PA. Best of luck with all of your surgery adn appointments. Hmm not sure what else to say. Hope all is well. Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT AND YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-06-07 21:43:44 |
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N/A
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Woohoo.... I like the sentences. It just make us feels more happier... Doesn't it? Sorry that i dun come here as often as I would like to.... [Storm Guardian]
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2004-06-07 18:30:47 |
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don't think about work! this is something you are doing all for yourself and your self confidence...work will be around your whole life [Miss Jingles]
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2004-06-07 13:34:07 |
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YAY
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I'm glad you had a good trip!! Good luck on the job! Working at a law firm sounds like fuN!!!! ~*Nikki*~ [silverstarlight]
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2004-06-07 11:41:31 |
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YAY
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I'll keep my fingers crossed for you about the jobs! Good to hear you had such a great time in Florida. I thought you had disappeared when you hadn't written in a while, or that maybe you didn't know MDD was back up so you decided to leave like a few of my other favs...glad that is not the case though! I hope you enjoyed your movie. REMEMBER: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! (Do you believe me yet??) [starlight_starbright]
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2004-06-06 11:24:57 |
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YAY
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remember : firm handshake :) [Miss Jingles]
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2004-06-06 01:24:41 |
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YAY
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GOOD LUCK WITH THE JOBS!!! [SecondClassHoe]
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2004-06-05 22:59:02 |
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Blugh
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You don't suck!! I'm sorry you're not happy about your surgery. :( Hopefully it will turn out even better than you expect!!! ~Nikki~ [silverstarlight]
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2004-06-03 10:28:58 |
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Blugh
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Awwwww hun!!! I just read your last entry you poor thing!!!!!!!!!! *SUPER HUGS* Could you get your job back? Goodness seems like this isn't your month. *HUGS* [MotherAlli]
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2004-05-20 13:23:12 |
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Blugh
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wow. countdown to a new reflection in the mirror...how ecixting and scarey ! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-05-19 11:41:45 |
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Blugh
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Do tell me why you say you "suck"? I am sure that is FAR from the truth. Perhaps you were just having a down day. That's good that you finally got a date for your surgery, I wish I had my date already! We'll have to swap surgery stories! LOL Hope that made you smile :) Anyhow I hope the rest of your week goes well. REMEMBER: YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND YOU ARE WORTH IT!!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-05-18 17:14:00 |
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GRrrr
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Ah you're not just a big complainer, you're just going through a rough time right now. It is super stressful to have to hear about surgeries and then finding out they are going to be post-poned and all that jazz. And then the whole car thing? Man I think I would've cried to! I'm quite sensitive like you are in that sense, little things just get to me and you feel like crying. Perhaps there are some techniques you could learn to calm yourself down when you hear disappointing news or something bad happens? What I try and do is tell that voice in my head to SHUT UP and then I try and take deep breaths to calm down. I don't know, might work for you, might not. Perhaps you're also getting more easily upset at home, because really you don't want to be back. It's a big change from being on your own to going and living back at home. Anyhow, I hope that things eventually started to go better for you. REMEMBER: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-05-16 21:17:38 |
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GRrrr
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oh my, hammer start up - my gal pal had to use a screwdriver - i hate car problems..so much cause i just don't know enough about cars to help myself [Miss Jingles]
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2004-05-14 13:49:57 |
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GRrrr
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nah i know what you mean, feeling emotional from time to time actually when i came home from college the first summer i was mad emotional about stuff and i definitly understand how money can play a part in that. [shroeder]
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2004-05-13 19:11:15 |
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FIrst Time
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oi long day huh [shroeder]
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2004-05-11 13:13:26 |
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FIrst Time
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lady - you are worth it..every moment of it !! be good to yourself and others will follow suit :) [Miss Jingles]
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2004-05-10 14:21:40 |
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FIrst Time
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Grr! Don't you dare think for one instant that you are ugly, undersirable or any other negative word of the sort, because you know DAMN WELL that you AREN'T any of those things!! You remind me so much of myself with the self-esteem/confidence thing it's SCARY! I'm sure things will get better for you. Just try and think positive as hard as that may be and NEVER forget...YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! (who cares what other people think!) [starlight_starbright]
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2004-05-09 11:50:55 |
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Home
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That's good that you get to start working again already. Is that going to be your job until you go back to school? Or is just for today (seeing as today is Saturday?) Either way I'm sure it'll be good to be out of your house for a few hours :) I hope you have a superfantastic weekend! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-05-08 08:42:03 |
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PISSED OFF
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rather then making this a 'public' entry - it's time to just talk to her (i think internet publicity is catty and unrequired) I don't know why you are in any way surprised, this is what she has done to you time and time again - she's made her choice as to her priorites...it's time you did the same =) [Miss Jingles]
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2004-05-07 12:35:32 |
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PISSED OFF
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That girl needs a swift kick in the a$$!!! She is being totally rude...it sounds like she doesn't know the saying, boys will come and go, but friends are forever. Ah well what can you do. Just be the better person and remember you have better friends than her and all her actions now will reflect how the rest of her life goes. I hope you had a good night despite this episode. Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-05-06 21:36:47 |
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We are missing 2
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Oh well. It's over now, i'm pretty sure that he wouldnt have seen anything great in me anyway.And with an inner dialoge like that you won't ever 'talk to the cute boy' - seriously ..you are the only perosn who feel that way about yourself and your inner dialoge about yourself influences everything about you -- You watch Kim, you know she isn't that 'great' but she acts like she is and guys are lured in by that... [Miss Jingles]
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2004-05-06 17:01:33 |
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We are missing 2
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It sounds to me like you also need a hug. I don't think you should be jealous of Kim. To me it does sound like she is fake and her fakeness is going to come back and bite her in the a$$! She's going to get herself into trouble sooner or later with all of these guys. I'm sure you know this already, but you're right, it wasn't very nice of her to invite you along to be the third wheel, that's just RUDE! Anyhow...hopefully after your summer at home your confidence will be somewhat higher. Just remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT! and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! You just need to start believing that and in yourself!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-05-06 05:57:26 |
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I'm going to miss this SO much!!
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humans are social beings - you will always make connections...that's why even at this god awful job i will have pangs of sorrow when i leave.... [Miss Jingles]
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2004-05-03 14:15:53 |
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I'm going to miss this SO much!!
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:) Ah, college. Brings back such memories. The summer will be over before you know it. [Elisheva]
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2004-05-03 12:53:26 |
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I'm going to miss this SO much!!
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Probably my homeland is too small to experience such things. You know probably I am envy of you having such an experience cos my college life is a complete miserable thing. Totally different from what I have expected lol... sighz.... Sorry for been away for so long.... [Storm Guardian]
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2004-05-02 18:31:50 |
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I'm going to miss this SO much!!
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I know exactly how you are feeling about going home, I experienced all of that after my first year of school to. It's definitely weird going home. Everyone/everything seems so much different and some people really are. You get bombarded by questions from people who you haven't seen in a while. At the end of the summer you'll be wishing you were back at school and once you're back you'll be missing home just a little. At any rate, I hope you have an excellent summer and have an alright time going home :) REMEMBER: YOU ARE WORTH IT AND YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-05-01 06:06:40 |
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Last Day of Classes!
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Yay for the last day of classes! It sounds like your "friend" Rachel has a violent tendency :P I hope your arm feels better soon. Sorry can't think of anything more interesting to write. Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-04-30 21:11:29 |
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Last Day of Classes!
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It's funny cause now can say, "I got my ass WHIPPED" and totally mean it! :) I love your entries! [Elisheva]
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2004-04-30 12:01:51 |
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I have a WHIP!
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I don't think it wa sthat odd that she was playing sexual while you guys were having a whip fight. i mean - you guys were having a whip fight :) [Miss Jingles]
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2004-04-26 14:45:32 |
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I have a WHIP!
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Cool! :) Whip it- WHIP IT GOOD! :) [Elisheva]
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2004-04-26 14:25:37 |
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I have a WHIP!
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yeah dude i'm always mad perplexed about those giant rubber cocks its like, how in the world... i mean some chicks find real ones painful not to mention one where the head is rubber and kneecap-sized [shroeder]
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2004-04-23 13:05:36 |
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I have a WHIP!
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Hehe that's classy that you got a whip...don't scare the boys away lol The best Dollar Store here in Canada is Dollarama, everything there is $1, opposed to other knockoffs...didn't realize it was the same everywhere haha I hope you have a superfantastic weekend! REMEMBER: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-04-23 06:16:46 |
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.......talk with Kim
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sometimes we have alterior motives..sure - but that doesn't mean our instincts are wrong -- [Miss Jingles]
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2004-04-20 16:54:23 |
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.......talk with Kim
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I don't think you're being a bitch about relationships. If the one guy is making the girl cry everyday that should be a definite sign to get out. As for your friend who's dating that guy she hasn't seen in a year, not to put ideas in one's head, but has it occured to her that he might be fooling around where he is? I'm not sure it's entirely possible to date a guy for that long and not see him. Then there's your friend Kim, you're right, if you're having that many doubts it doesn't make a whole lot of sense to stay with that person. As for the other girl who's only been with one guy, I have a friend like that to...she is very happy and that's all that matters. I mean sure down the road one might regret not having dated around, but if you are sure they are "the one" then it makes sense to stay with them. I mean why would you want to take a chance on going around dating other guys knowing you've already found "the one"? Yep I've got a weird take on things. I hope your week is going well so far! REMEMBER: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-04-20 06:05:12 |
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"Eff You Kim"
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Ugh, I really dislike people like that! It's not fair that Kim should just use you for whenever Paul's not around! That's not being a true friend at all. I'm sorry she's like that because you are such a nice person and don't deserve to be treated like that!!!!!!!! [silverstarlight]
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2004-04-19 20:43:51 |
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"Eff You Kim"
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whoops! Almost forgot to write....REMBMER YOU ARE WORTH IT AND YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! Everything will work out for you next year the way it's supposed to! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-04-19 19:25:06 |
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"Eff You Kim"
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It sounds to me like Kim is in "puppy love" with this Paul guy. It's terrible that she's putting this guy before you or any of her other friends, it sounds like she's not going to have friends for to much longer. Perhaps you should try talking to her about the way she's behaving. Best of luck with that! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-04-19 19:22:13 |
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It's a Perfect Day, nothing standing in my way
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It sounds like your weekend was alright. That's to bad that your friend Kim didn't bother to tell you earlier that she couldn't afford things for next year. Did it occur to her to get herself a job this summer so that maybe she could afford it? Anywho, why can't you take one course this summer and the other one next summer, that way it won't be so crazy busy for you? Well I hope you have a great start to your week! REMEMBER: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-04-19 06:14:59 |
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Back
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Why thankyou very much ^_^! [MakenZero]
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2004-04-17 19:48:19 |
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....NIIIIIICE
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Go Kendy, you get those guys. If you don't want to give someone your number and don't want to tell him, give him this number, it's so funny. 410-347-1488. it's the rejection hotline. [Jenna]
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2004-04-15 18:36:16 |
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BREATHE! Your nose surgery is not yet here adn when the time comes you will be in professional hands :) Maybe it's the procrastinator in me - but i never get worked up about something until the time actually comes for it, vacation, pain, tests...whatever - Some folks think that's a little odd , but i tell ya what - it makes for a lot less stress over the little things! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-04-15 14:57:48 |
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Oh my gosh! Asian eyes are so beautiful, why would anybody change them?! Maybe your anxiety is a sign that you should do more thinking and waiting about your nose job until you feel comfortable with it. [Elisheva]
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2004-04-14 11:31:17 |
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It definitely sounds like you've got some major anxieties happening about your upcomming nose surgery. I'm sure you have nothing to worry about though, considering you've been through so many surgeries already. I guess it wouldn't help you if you talked to someone who had nose surgery before? I dunno. Well I'm not entirely sure what else to comment on this time. I hope all continues to go well for you and try not to freak to much about the nose surgery, you can't do much until you get a date for it or until it happens (I'm the same way about my jaw surgery). Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! (and in response to your question, I am not sick of writing that...I told you I would write it until you believed it) [starlight_starbright]
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2004-04-14 06:43:17 |
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....NIIIIIICE
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Girl, why didn't you get his number? Next time! [Elisheva]
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2004-04-12 15:32:17 |
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....NIIIIIICE
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i love sexy strangers. [shroeder]
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2004-04-12 14:48:08 |
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....NIIIIIICE
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Compliments...though we should never expect them -- it's so RAD when you get them..makes ya smile and giggle and feel good :) [Miss Jingles]
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2004-04-12 13:31:46 |
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You should have talked to M!!! Hopefully you will go back to the club one night and he will be there and you HAVE HAVE HAVE to get his number!!!!! ~*Nikki*~ [silverstarlight]
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2004-04-12 09:45:33 |
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....NIIIIIICE
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Clubbing... Never been much and glad that you enjoy all the fun. [Storm Guardian]
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2004-04-11 07:49:49 |
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....NIIIIIICE
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That's good to hear that you had such a great time at the club. See you ARE beautiful if guys are telling you this. And you can't be fat or un-attractive if guys kept dancing with you, especially the hotty! So really you should soon start to believe that YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! Hope you enjoy the rest of your easter weekend! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-04-11 06:35:49 |
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i hate those times where u sit there totally kicking yourself for not getting a number or talkin 2 sum1, haha o well life rolls on, passes by ur eyes so fast, another 24 another day has passed (kMk) xxo peace check me out sometime [tootypical4words]
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2004-04-11 02:04:30 |
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Sex and the City
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I hope that your plans work out ok for this weekend. Has your friend Heather talked to you about why she is mad? Hmmm. I'm sure there could be a million reasons. Enjoy your Easter weekend! Remember...YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! (Do you believe that yet??) [starlight_starbright]
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2004-04-10 07:36:59 |
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YAY!
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i love having random crushes on people who i refer to be their description rather than their name... lol :) [shroeder]
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2004-04-08 00:53:24 |
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YAY!
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Sorry I haven't been around to read and comment!!! Blah I've been so frickin' busy it's insane!!! i'm sure you feel for me, right? :) [MotherAlli]
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2004-04-07 23:02:55 |
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YAY!
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You're not a loser, you're simply a girl with a crush! hehe Spring fever must be in the air. I hope you have a great weekend! YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL...don't forget that! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-04-07 21:49:38 |
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YAY!
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invite bio boy out for some macaroni!!! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-04-07 14:46:12 |
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YAY!
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Sounds like you're in an awesome mood! :) [Elisheva]
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2004-04-07 14:32:15 |
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Sigh
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That stinks about Bio Boy (literally!) But I bet if you went out with him and said you didn't like the smoking he at least wouldn't do it around you. And wow, a cruise!!! I have never been on one so I am jealous!!!!!!!! ~*Nikki*~ [silverstarlight]
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2004-04-05 05:30:50 |
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Sigh
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Good to hear you've had some feeling pretty days lately. I think it's a good plan to miss bio one day and then ask bio boy to borrow his notes. He is potentially interested in you if he keeps looking at you. Yay for getting hit on by a hot guy. Perhpas you could talk to Kim about always brining Paul to everything...maybe tell her you want a GIRLS night out? Yay for getting to go on a cruise. Why do you have to have a nose job done? I hope it all works out for you. Don't forget...YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-04-04 14:40:24 |
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Sigh
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Wow... I can see quite a bit of things happening to when I am not around... hope that you will enjoy your weekend. [Storm Guardian]
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2004-04-04 01:59:35 |
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Sigh
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A cruise! Kick-ass! I LOVE cruises. That's something to look forward to. And why do you want a nose job? [Elisheva]
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2004-04-02 14:23:55 |
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Sigh
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oh well nobody's perfect if thats the worst thing he does i'd say thats pretty good [shroeder]
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2004-04-02 14:17:32 |
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Sigh
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One of my girlfriends had been waiting since she was like 12 for her nose job -- when she was 19 she got so excited about it because she was finally old enough to have it done (according to her mother) But i think part of her reason for wanting it so bad was that she was a bit of an ugly duckling for a long time - boys didn't appreciate her because she is black and we lived in an all white area -- and she had bad glasses....But then she was out of highschool, out in the real world - she got new glasses and contacts, found a great hairdresser and discovered that boys outside of our small area thought she was beautiful...and now she's forgotten she ever wanted to change her nose --- Kendall, I'm not saying this is your situation at all, but it's what i thought of when i read your entry :) Bio boy isn't perfect anymore - go ahead ask him to clarify a point made in class -- don't let this be another something you wish you did later -- there lots of other boys you can make your perfect man from a distance...go test the waters !!! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-04-02 14:14:28 |
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Woot Woot
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Yeay! I love when you're in a good mood! Awesome. Keep it up! [Elisheva]
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2004-04-02 11:35:41 |
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Oh NO Oh NO oh NO!!!!!
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Yup -- don't let them into your room ...seriously an ear suck is one thing - he could've tried more. No one else will stand up for you ...if you dont want a man touching you - another man doesn't have to be the reason -- You tell them NO and say it loud - don't leave yourself open like that or it'll happen again. [Miss Jingles]
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2004-03-30 14:16:59 |
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Oh NO Oh NO oh NO!!!!!
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Girl, you shouldn't have even let him in! You told him not to come up and then he did, clearly testing your boundaries. And why do you feel you have to lie to him? You didn't like it, is there something wrong with telling him that? Stick up for yourself! You are too important not too. [Elisheva]
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2004-03-29 11:36:19 |
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Oh NO Oh NO oh NO!!!!!
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It sounds like your friends should STOP trying to "help" you in the guy department. Not that it's not nice that they are trying to help you, but you know what I mean. That's to bad that that Derrick guy turned out to be a sex crazy guy! The right guy will come along when you least expect it. In the meantime, work on that insecurity thing...as in making it better...you can do it! Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! :D [starlight_starbright]
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2004-03-29 06:53:08 |
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Oh NO Oh NO oh NO!!!!!
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Your going to have to be more careful. It's really not a good thing if your getting that all the time. Sometimes it does have to deal with you. Just dress suitable and don't leave yourself open. It's fine to where clothes that but most of the time it's for attention. Sorry having to say that. It's not always but that's mostly. Which it wasn't all about looks. [MakenZero]
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2004-03-27 17:26:35 |
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Bio Boy
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That's good that bio-boy said something to you. Perhaps next time you see him in class he might even talk to you there! hehe See you are getting braver, talking to all these guys! :) I hope you're having a great weekend so far! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-03-26 17:48:38 |
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Bio Boy
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Other than the tits comment, sounds like a pretty good day! :) Glad Bio Boy is hanging around. Flash a smile, maybe he'll come over next time! [Elisheva]
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2004-03-26 13:52:16 |
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Weekend Oddness
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You should have talked to dan?? No way - what was he thinking coming out when I am sure he knew you'd be there and he wanted to hookup with your friend in front of you? Hell no you shouldn't have talked to that backstabber - Don't be anyones doormat!!! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-03-23 12:02:57 |
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Weekend Oddness
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You do what makes you feel comfortable! Who cares what other people think you should be doing. Glad you had a busy weekend! [Elisheva]
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2004-03-23 11:40:29 |
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Weekend Oddness
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It definitely sounds like you had an interesting weekend. It also sounds like (well from what you wrote) that that Tom guy is into you on one level or another. Maybe today when you felt like cuddling you should've called him haha :) I hope you had a great start to your week! Remember: YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! (work on that confidence girl!!) [starlight_starbright]
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2004-03-22 21:39:58 |
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In a world where you can be anything, BE YOURSELF
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there's lots of nice, fine loking guys out there and we certainlly won't be attracted to all of them - Sounds like he was trying a bit too hard, probably cause he thought you are cute - take it as a compliment and next time you want them to leave. Ask, cause boys don't do well with hints and then you'll likely find him less annoying!! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-03-18 12:32:36 |
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In a world where you can be anything, BE YOURSELF
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Thanks for using the quote I put in your diary as your title. Unfortunately I didn't make the quote up myself, but cut it out from a magazine a long time ago...it hangs on my mirror. I'll write a get to know me entry soon and then you'll know my real name. I know it's silly not to just put it in this comment, but then again I'm silly like that. Glad to hear everything is going well and that you are getting more comfortable around guys, I say that because you have been hanging out with Paul and Tom no problem...GO YOU! I hope the rest of your week goes well. And always remember YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-03-17 21:30:51 |
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In a world where you can be anything, BE YOURSELF
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*hugs* Great quote. [Elisheva]
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2004-03-17 16:10:34 |
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Back to School
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you hide behine a wall - a wall of ' not up to what they expect, not as pretty as they think i should be...' You talk about 'they' and 'them' and 'he' as if those people are who defines you - OK Asian stripper - sure that has some expectation behind it - but who cares what he expects? what about what you think of him? You are the master of your universe plain and simple - and you know what? You are going to disapoint people in your lifetime and you aren't going ot live up to everything - ut so what? that's only a tiny portion of the time - why spend the rest of your time dwelling on it ?? You have to STAND up and be COUNTED - you are Ok talking to people online, on the phone and you think that personality doesn't translate into face to face? [Miss Jingles]
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2004-03-16 14:35:11 |
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Back to School
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I've got a question for you...where is your CONFIDENCE??!! You sound so much like me at times it is SCARY! I know it's hard to believe a guy when he says your hot or hard to believe that any guy would say such a thing, but did it ever occur to you that maybe this Tom guy really does think you're HOT!?! You (well and me, but mine's getting better) need to stop thinking of the negative right away. We both dwell on the negative things and then where does that leave us...oh that's right feeling crappy! You DESERVE to be happy in your life. I think something that might help you is exercising every day, do something you love, like maybe dancing if that's it, or running...to get that endorphin rush everyday. Then as soon as a negative thought pops into your head, tell yourself to SHUT UP and replace it with a positive one. It's a lot of work, but I can guarantee you will start to feel better about yourself. And when you get a compliment, I know it's super hard to believe/accept them, but next time just try and say thank you :) Please don't think I am just saying I know what it's like to make you feel better, I do know what it's like 'cause I've been through the whole negative/blahness/prettier friends/no boyfriend/insecure/un-confident thing and it really isn't any fun. YOU CAN DO THIS! Always remember YOU ARE WORTH IT AND YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! You just need to start believing it! Quote: "In a world where you can be anything, BE YOURSELF" [starlight_starbright]
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2004-03-15 16:23:46 |
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Back to School
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OK, girl. Honestly, why would you think that people would think you are less than mediocre. The ONLY reason anyone would EVER think that is because you think that yourself. Your self image is the strongest signal you give out to the world. I was watching Dr. Phil the other day, and something he said struck me and reminded me of you. It was a show about confidence, and one of the girls on there was always down on herself, saying she was sure people thought she sucked and she never went out of her way with anything because she knew people thought she was stupid. Dr. Phil said, "What makes you so smart that you know what other people are thinking?" He said it was arrogant to think you know what other people think of you, and then, even if you do know, who cares. It doesn't change who you are. You're hot if you want to be hot. And I think you're hot. [Elisheva]
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2004-03-15 13:39:42 |
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Never Again
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*hugs* It definitely sounds like you had a crappy weekend. No offence to your "friends" but that was really rude of them to do what they did. I think you should talk to them about it so that it doesn't happen again. Best of luck with the photographs, I hope that at least one shot turned out for you. Perhaps when you go back to school things will be better...who knows. I don't know what else to write. Hope your Sunday goes well. And remember...YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-03-14 01:49:06 |
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Hum De Dum
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Thanks for the comment, what you wrote totally made sense :) Don't feel bad about wasting away your day on the computer, remember it is YOUR spring break and you can spend it however you want...the point is that you get a break! My first year of university I was just like you, you know the whole being dependent thing and the money thing with the parents, by your second year all that will change, I wouldn't worry. And your parents will find a way to pull through this momentary money crisis. I think you'll feel a lot better about the money thing next year, if you work during the summer and save your money for school next year :) I think that the older we get the less confident we get about doing things by ourselves, hence why you may have so much trouble just going to the mall by yourself. I think that will probably change though once you are well into your second year of school, it seems to be the year when you start to realize you can do this whole independent thing :) And don't forget...YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! (do you believe that yet??) [starlight_starbright]
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2004-03-10 21:03:52 |
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Hum De Dum
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Just enjoy the quiet time. It's not boring, it's relaxing. You'll be plenty busy when you get back to school. [Elisheva]
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2004-03-10 14:44:58 |
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Hum De Dum
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As you get older and begin to understand the REAL meaning of moneya nd financial responsibility -- it's only then that you can really appreciate how much a parent really does financially for their children. And i think it's natural to feel a little guilty about that -- While it's nice that your mom still does all these little things for you ..legally she can only do it for so much longer, when you are a legal adult there is certain info that can only be given to you and no one else like bank info - anything to do with police and medical such you should really try to handle on your own with her as back-up if you need support of help. You'll feel really accomplished when you do it and plus you'll learn all sorts of stuff you never realized was a part of the proccess (like me trying to take care of my insurance....eeekk!!!) [Miss Jingles]
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2004-03-10 14:12:07 |
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Uber Amounts of Money Spent
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Cheesecake factory..good times - big bills are bad...but weall do it every now and again even though we can't afford it -- at least it tasted good, right? [Miss Jingles]
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2004-03-08 23:14:23 |
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Uber Amounts of Money Spent
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Sounds like a good time, except the cel phone. That's too bad, but don't most cel companies have deals now where you get a free phone with the service? It may not be the nicest phone, but it's free. And I don't even want to know what "nutter" is. [Elisheva]
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2004-03-08 12:27:32 |
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Uber Amounts of Money Spent
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Call your cell and see who picks up. Maybe the club has it!! If you can't figure out where it went then contact your cell service providers and they can maybe trace it if any calls are made from it or cancel out that phone and provide you with a new one. :) [MotherAlli]
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2004-03-08 00:29:47 |
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Uber Amounts of Money Spent
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It definitely sounds like you had a good weekend. That definitely sucks about your cell phone, hopefully they found it at the club. Maybe that one guy that pulled you off the floor took it? I obviously have no idea. Craziness about all the money spent, but I bet it was worth it in the end :) I hope you have/had (depending when you read this) a great Sunday to. Always remember...YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! :D [starlight_starbright]
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2004-03-07 11:17:41 |
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Um...yeah
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Hmm... That conversation is so aggressive... Wow... lol... Hope that you have a really good day. [Storm Guardian]
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2004-03-03 06:35:01 |
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Um...yeah
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I think that a single would definitely be good for you, help you to become more independent and you wouldn't have to worry about roommate CRAP. I don't think Kim should be offended that you told her you wanted a single and that you might ask her to room with you again if you can't get a single, it's not stupid at all. She now knows you would like a single, so she's been warned. See with her inviting herself along to your house, it sounds like she is LONELY. She probably doesn't like herself very much so she tries to steal guys, and invites herself along and puts others down and picks on you, because all of that makes her feel better because she's to stubborn to tell anyone she doesn't like herself or ask for help, or god forbid *change* her attitude. Sorry all of that might be a bit far fetched, but just from what you've written that's totally the impression I get of this Kim girl. As for telling her she can't come to your house for Spring Break, just tell her your Dad changed his mind or something. Or you have some family thing to go to. It's not exactly nice to lie and I'm not such a big fan of it, but in this case a teeny weeny little white half-truth isn't going to be life altering for either one of you. Ok enough of my babbling, I hope all is going well. That's great that you're going to start using the stairs more :) I hope your week is going well. YOU WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-03-03 06:17:06 |
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Um...yeah
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I gave up beer for Lent! I think challenging yourself is a good thing - religious or not! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-03-02 12:19:29 |
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Um...yeah
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Seriously, don't doubt your decision. I know about a MILLION people who roomed with friends, and I am not exaggerating when I say NONE of them stayed friends. If you're already annoyed with her from time to time, that will only get exacerbated when you have to be around her 24/7. [Elisheva]
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2004-03-02 11:38:02 |
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Um...yeah
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im dealing with a rough problem right now.. please comment on it and try to help.. thanx [UnCuTpRiNcEss]
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2004-03-02 08:09:45 |
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Rough Week
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you have to think enough of yourself to talk to Kim, because fromt he sounds of things she doesn't have a clue what friendship is about - adn as awful as that is -- you are letting her do it -- you have control over this. If she wants Dan and you are uncomfortable with it , speak up. You can't expect someone is as dumb as her to figure it out on her own! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-03-01 17:35:31 |
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Rough Week
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I definitely agree that you should not under any circumstances room with Kim, especially if you want to stay friends with her. But I'm worried that if you get a single, you'll get depressed. You're more depressed when you're alone. Couldn't you just get a random roomie- that always worked awesome for me. [Elisheva]
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2004-03-01 13:38:03 |
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Rough Week
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Your "friend" Kim doesn't really seem like much a friend of all. It sounds like to me that even though you say you are the one who's insecure, that she is really the one who is insecure. I say that because why would you have to want to take all the guys you are interested in? Why would she bother to not check with you on things. It kinda sounds like she thinks that you find all these sweet great guys and she finds all the losers, so that if she steals your sweet guys she'll feel better about herself. I don't know if that makes any sense to you. I don't think you have anything to be insecure about. Getting a single next year will probably be the best idea for you. I mean then you can do things without worrying about someone watching over your shoulder, or being quiet when you come in from somewhere. As for the guy business, as hard as it is, just be patient. A guy will come along when he's supposed to. In the mean time I think you should try and make it a goal of yours to talk, just talk to at least one different guy each week. It doesn't mean you have to act totally interested in him in "that" way, or ever talk to him again, but I think it would be a good confidence booster for you. Maybe you should even try and talk to the guy you work with and see if he wants to hang out sometime just as friends...it can be done, girls and guys just being friends. Ok I'm starting to sound naggish or something. Anyhow, I hope you have a great weekend. Always remember....YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-02-28 07:38:40 |
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Weekend is Over
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Hardcore dating sounds like dating done with a guy who has a mohawk and spiked belt or something :) [Miss Jingles]
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2004-02-24 17:46:52 |
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Weekend is Over
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Oh my girlie...sleeping IS fun! :D :D :D Hehe! [MotherAlli]
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2004-02-24 00:13:06 |
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Weekend is Over
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I think you are probably over Dan, but you just keep getting it in your head that when you are down he's the one you should be with. It really sounds like you are lonely for some male attention. I wouldn't worry to much though, you'll find a guy soon enough. In the meantime if it isn't to weird for you, perhaps you should try and make some guy friends :) Keep smiling and remember YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL and YOU ARE WORTH IT!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-02-23 06:20:42 |
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Woop Woop
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maybe black w/ red streaks? I love that look for the most part on lovely Asian ladies such as yourself [Miss Jingles]
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2004-02-20 17:24:41 |
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Woop Woop
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I love the Dollar Store Hangers too. In fact I love a lot of things at the Dollar Store. They have awesome cereal bowls. [Elisheva]
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2004-02-20 11:31:32 |
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Woop Woop
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A hair change sounds like a good idea. You could be all brave and go in and tell them to do what they want with your hair, within the limits of not having it above your shoulders and giving you no mullet...I'm sure they could come up with a great cut for your face. I think that the dark red colour would be cool to do in your hair. Hmm. I hope you have fun working (if you work this weekend) and have a great start to your weekend! SMILE! YOU ARE WORTH IT, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! (told you I'd write that until you believe it) [starlight_starbright]
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2004-02-20 06:47:13 |
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Nope..i was wrong
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THere are actually historical answers to your questions. Marriage as we know it began as an insitution of property. Women could not take care of themselves without a man, and so when she became of age, she needed to move from her father's house into the care of another man, her husband. Marriage was also a way to tie families together, to make alliances and to secure aid between neighbors and nations. Thirdly, it was an institution to guarantee children, most importantly for the creation of heirs. These things were true until VERY recent history. As we became wealthy, more educated and women became equals, marriage has become about companionship and love. But you are missing the point, which is that you need to get your mind off men completely. You have issues with yourself that you need to take care of. If your relationship with yourself is rocky, how do you expect to maintain one with someone else? If you don't love yourself, how can you expect someone else to do it? [Elisheva]
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2004-02-18 11:37:09 |
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Nope..i was wrong
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You shouldn't feel the need to apologize, after all it is YOUR DIARY! I don't think that you have anything to worry about on the guy front or that you need to let down your morals and all that jazz. I just think that you are one of those people that until you truly love yourself, you're not going to be able to let a guy into your life, because you don't really believe you deserve it. I mean sure you want it and its easy enough to talk about and eveything, but way deep down it kinda seems like you might be sabatoging yourself, just so you won't have to go through the broken heart game or what not. I'm not really sure here, but those are my speculations. I hope that you can get out of this blah mood! Always remember YOU ARE WORTH IT! And YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-02-18 06:12:55 |
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Weirdly Enough....
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lip rings done in the centre of boys with nice lips is a good thing..so are tounge rings and labret piercings...mmmmmmmm [Miss Jingles]
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2004-02-17 16:35:14 |
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Weirdly Enough....
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How can you get to know anybody if you don't talk to them? :) Silly girl, if someone is flirting, flirt back! What's the worst that could happen? Just complimenting you is not saying "Let me hit on you and hook up". [Elisheva]
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2004-02-17 14:46:29 |
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Back Again
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That's to bad to hear that you are at the same place you were in October. Perhaps the guys that said "hey you" were saying that because they truly wanted to talk to you or thought you were good looking...it is probably true ya know! I have a book recomendation for you...it's called "Self-Matters" by Dr.Phil...I highly recomend (wow I can't spell) it, it will help you to have confidence/strength in yourself, I can tell this from my reading only two chapters of it already. Always remember YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!!!! Try and SMILE :D [starlight_starbright]
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2004-02-16 21:45:10 |
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Back Again
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My dear though you are a complicated gal the thoughts you have a bout guys are certainlly not unique to you :) we've all shown that one or two guys too may things about our inner selves -- We've all questioned 'WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING - NOW HE"LL NEVER LIKE ME" Many of us wish we could just not hink about men cause we know in our hearts it is not a man that will bring us real happiness. But humans are social beings, humans desire companionship...we need touch, so it's not unnatural to want to have someone close to you -- that's normal! Kendall, you sound like a girl - though that may not make things better, know that you aren't weird. CHIN UP and do your laundry, you'd be surprised how much better you'll feel with clean clothes! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-02-16 14:01:47 |
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Friday the 13th and impending Valentines Day
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Sounds like you're going to have a fun valentines day. I've never had a pedicure in my life! Woo for hot guys in the band, boo that they sucked so bad...maybe they thought they would get by on their looks if not their talent. As for the bio boy, sure you should try and strike up a converstaion with him, the trick is to go into that with no expectations, then you can't be dissappointed. If you want a nice bitter like poem about valentines day visit cmjl's diary...hehe it's a classic! Anywho I hope you have a great weekend and a HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!! SMILE! And of course don't forget YOU ARE WORTH IT, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! :D (do you believe that yet? hehe) [starlight_starbright]
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2004-02-14 07:55:40 |
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Love Actually
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not persuing guys cause you can't kiss ....No, I'm afraid that's not a good enough reason! Don't let your mouth keep you unhappy...there are so many other things! A kiss is just a kiss...it s all the other things that surround it that make it special - don't put your life on hold for a kiss. [Miss Jingles]
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2004-02-12 11:38:47 |
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Love Actually
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Everything will work out for you the way it is supposed to. It's weird, for me I find it easier to have guy friends, less garbage with them I suppose and they usually always tell you the honest truth. Unlike girls sometimes who get all jealous and all that garbage. On the guy front though, don't even give them a second thought, one will come along soon enough :D [starlight_starbright]
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2004-02-11 18:04:31 |
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Love Actually
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Hi. I am inviting people to come and do my surveys. There are lots on almost all my previous pages. I hope you come. Thanks. [surveys]
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2004-02-11 05:29:22 |
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N/A
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Sounds like you had a good day, other than the no sleep and the new appliance. Just think, no making out for a few months, but great teeth for the rest of your life! [Elisheva]
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2004-02-10 11:44:12 |
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N/A
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i totally missed Average Joe last night - they had best be doing an average Jane too...regular gals and a hot hot guy, or a regular gal choosing from hot hot men!! It's too early for me to be able to think of any songs just now...but i always have a good laugh when i hear 'Ran" by Floack of Seagulls... [Miss Jingles]
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2004-02-10 11:37:06 |
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N/A
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Have more sleep if possible... *hugs* Poor you I would have trouble even to go on line if I am that lack of sleep... hope that you will have yours. [Storm Guardian]
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2004-02-10 07:42:03 |
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N/A
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I saw only a brief part of Average Joe. Do you know who put that detenator there in the first place? Yep the good looking guys are definitely mean and all selfish like. That sucks about your appliance, but just think of how beautiful your teeth will be when it all comes off! YOU ARE WORTH IT, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! SMILE :D [starlight_starbright]
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2004-02-10 06:15:36 |
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Weekend Fun
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do it!! take the time in the morning to put on a wee bit of make up and don't wear sweats, it changes your attitude i swear. I rmember making the choice after my first semester -- that no matter where i went (unless it was like to pick up mil or something) I would put a bit of effort into my apperance cause it makes me feel better about myself - it may sound superficial, but change comes slowly and in stages and clothes and make up are great places to start!! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-02-09 12:34:42 |
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Weekend Fun
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Wow, you watched a LOT of movies this weekend! :) I don't think I've seen that many movies in the past 4 months, and we've had 3 snow days in that time. :) I just bought colored shoes too- don't they rock! [Elisheva]
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2004-02-09 12:02:36 |
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Weekend Fun
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Sounds like you had a good weekend. If you don't want to exercise at the gym why not get a pedometer and try and get in 10,000 steps a day. Then just try and watch what you're eating a little more and I am sure you will start to see results. YOU ARE WORTH IT, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! :D [starlight_starbright]
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2004-02-09 06:15:13 |
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Gollum
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i think that rooming on your own might be a really positive experience for you - it's great to have friends near by - but sometimes you just need your own space! And no need for the thanks - sometimes you just need the words of others to take a moment to look at yourself in a positive light :) Hey - we all have that, that's one of the great things about posting here.!! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-02-08 19:25:25 |
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Gollum
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Want to know the number one fastest way to lose a friend? Room with them. I'm dead serious. I do not know a SINGLE PERSON who has roomed with a friend and stayed friends with them. I know people who roomed with strangers and BECAME friends, but it just doesn't work. And I know a ton of examples. So I would pick the person you're the least close with, if not a single. [Elisheva]
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2004-02-06 11:18:02 |
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Gollum
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Sounds like your mood definitely picked up. I agree with you on how some Christians are very closed minded at times and sometimes I find they get very clicky and that drives me nuts. Oh well what can you do? Don't forget YOU ARE WORTH IT and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! (I have a relatively short memory so I don't know if I had added anything else...hehe SMILE) [starlight_starbright]
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2004-02-06 06:15:44 |
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Another Day
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LOL - it's so easy to say 'forget about other people' But we all care how other percieve us. Everyone does, we all dress certain ways so others will have a certain image of who we are. It's a matter of choice how much you care about others opinions and how those shape you -- Step one is going to have to be discovering who you are, and how to be happy with that person - when you seek approval through the eyes of others, usually they will fail you adn you'll find yourself feeling worthless. So while it fine and dandy to care about others, you can't let them decided yourself worth. that is not just an attitude change though - you are going to have to learn to stand up for yourself , say things that are on your mind - do things that make you feel good and empowered -- And you know , it's not going to be easy. But it will get easier as you go. Outside beauty is nothing when you don't feel whole inside...so take a serious look at what you need to do to feel better about being you ! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-02-05 12:46:29 |
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Another Day
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What you need to do is take other people out of the equation. I'm pretty, but not because other people say I am or think I am. I just am, because I say so! :) You need to be your own best friend and expect things from yourself before you can expect things from others. How can others respect you in the ways you want, when you won't even respect yourself in those ways? [Elisheva]
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2004-02-05 11:10:38 |
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Another Day
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Ok you definitely need to read this...WHO CARES WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK!! I definitely know that it is really hard to get over what others think of you. It kinda sounds like you need to stop confusing your body image with your self-image. I mean admit it to yourself, you know that YOU ARE WORTH IT, YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL PERSON INSIDE (AND OUT), YOU DO HAVE A GREAT PERSONALITY! I mean why do you think your friends stick around? If you had a crappy personality, they obviously wouldn't want to be your friends, so that proves you do have a GREAT personality. You are WORTH IT! I know from personal experience how hard it is to feel accepted and like you belong and all that jazz, but once you can get over the feelings of inadequacy and the telling yourself negative things and stop caring what others think, I promise you'll start feeling better. As you read this I bet you were thinking the opposite of what I was saying, but you need to start believing in youreslf. YOU CAN DO IT! YOU ARE WORTH IT! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! And I will write these things in EVERY comment I write in your diary until you start beliving them because these things ARE TRUE! :D [starlight_starbright]
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2004-02-04 20:05:29 |
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Evil Snow
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hopefully your friend isn't pregnant - And if she is , I hope that she really considers all her options - cause having a kid while still in school is tough - like tougher then she can possibley imagine. Guilt about abortion is normal - but you really have to consider too, if I have this baby now - is that the best thing for it?I personallly believe that any baby you are meant to have you will, that if you have an abortion, then the child you actually have will be the one you were supposed to - Do i make any sense? Not so much a 'killing' but a putting off, moms who are supposed to be moms will get there one day [Miss Jingles]
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2004-02-04 14:30:15 |
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Evil Snow
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You shouldn't ever think you are ugly, I think you definitely have a very pretty face! Try not to get so down on yourself about guys chum. Guys are STUPID. Say it with me STUPID! Most of the time they don't have the confidence to approach us, because they are afraid of rejection to. Sounds like a good plan for V-Day. Enjoy the club if you go. As for money for trips, why don't you try and start saving first. Try and put away a little bit from each paycheque? Might be worth a shot. Enjoy your Wednesday!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-02-04 04:44:32 |
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Evil Snow
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See if you take courses EARLY in the AM chances are your classes will be cancelled fully... :D [MotherAlli]
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2004-02-03 14:17:38 |
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GAH!!
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Hmm.. That is an interesting picture.. :) I guess that it is hard to ever catch you taking such a picture huh... *grins* Not bad. Photos should show many side of you instead of just one flat image that you want to potray. Dun you agree? [Storm Guardian]
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2004-02-03 05:39:40 |
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GAH!!
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^ Yeah I gotta agree with that - biys minds are usually elsewhere and normally when you meet someone and chat, online or not - at our age it is usually partially sexually motivated. Especially if there is any exchange in pictures - i mean there is a reason you showed him the sexy pic - right? But don't think of yourself as short and stubby ...don't be down on yourself for curves. guys are turned on by most anything - seriously, it's women who are other women's harshest judges and the worst of them all will be yourself! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-02-02 14:37:24 |
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GAH!!
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Well, that's what guys on the internet expect. They aren't cruising the net just to talk. [Elisheva]
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2004-02-02 11:41:51 |
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GAH!!
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Yep guys are stupid, we all know this. When you're supposed to find a guy you will...don't be so hard on yourself. Have a great start to your week! :D [starlight_starbright]
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2004-02-02 06:10:23 |
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Groan
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keep a super soaker under your pillow and randomly spray her is she is keeping you awake - or when she is trying to sleep :) [Miss Jingles]
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2004-01-29 14:26:20 |
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Groan
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If she keeps you awake, you go ahead and flip out! I mean, geez, how annoying is that! I would be pissed too. [Elisheva]
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2004-01-29 11:21:38 |
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Groan
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I think your roommate needs a reality check!! I hated living with roommates. One way my one roommate and I dealt with the other one, was dropping subtle hints...very loudly and so she could hear. But I think what you need to do is talk to this girl. Maybe you guys could establish, that when the other one is going to bed you have either the computer OR the t.v on NOT BOTH, and as for the phone maybe you don't talk on it when the other one is going to bed. I guess it just sounds to me like you two haven't really talked and that you definitely need to do that! Best of luck with everything. I'll keep my fingers crossed that your "friends" go home this weekend so you can have a breaK! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-01-28 21:11:34 |
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Oh no....
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Oh, that's so awful. It's always sad when somebody so young dies unexpectedly, even if you hardly knew them. [Elisheva]
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2004-01-28 14:44:49 |
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Oh no....
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the loss of life of anyone that you saw from time to time or ever talked to can be really shocking. Especially since we are all still soyoung. In North America death of young people isn't as common as it is in other nations and it's really hard hitting. I had the same thing happen to me where an aquantance of mine lost both her best friends in a car crash - i felt hear broken for her and the girls families...maybe take this as a sign to remind all those close to you that you love them -- death is always a reminder that this life is not permanent. [Miss Jingles]
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2004-01-28 14:28:59 |
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Oh no....
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That is definitely very sad. *hugs* I guess the best thing to do now would be to pray that the family has strength to get through this. [starlight_starbright]
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2004-01-28 14:16:34 |
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It's So Cold
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How do i put this gentley?? Guys are idiots - if you want them, i think most of the time you have to go get them. A woman with any sort of confidence can be an intimidating thing to a man --they are freaked about being shot down- So just keep working with yorself, i know all about those feeling down moments --but trust me, you are your harshest critic. If you see beauty in yourself, others see it too :) [Miss Jingles]
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2004-01-26 14:30:23 |
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It's So Cold
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You Go Girl!! There is nothing wrong with becomming more confident. I bet that you don't have anything major to change about yourself, and the things you might think you want to change, probably don't need to be changed. I bet your friends like you just the way you are, which would mean that you don't have to change anything, except of course for keeping up this whole new confidence thing and the new optimistic attitude! You can even tell by what you write in your entries how you are changing...in a good way! I hope that the rest of your weekend went well and that you have a great start to your week tomorrow :D [starlight_starbright]
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2004-01-25 12:52:56 |
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Holy Mother!!
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It definitley sounds like you had a good night. I hope the rest of your weekend goes just as well :D [starlight_starbright]
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2004-01-24 07:29:59 |
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Killing Some Time
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Wow the project sound cool.... i wished that they will have their album to be released in my here. [Storm Guardian]
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2004-01-23 21:16:33 |
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Killing Some Time
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You're right - it's a powerful feeling to not really want anyone in particular - wish i could say the same was happening for me right now! But no matter where iam in life...someone to hug and cuddle is always a nice thought. [Miss Jingles]
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2004-01-21 14:51:48 |
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Killing Some Time
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Well, he's not totally from the internet right, since you have a friend who knows him? Just be careful, stick up for yourself. [Elisheva]
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2004-01-21 11:28:35 |
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Killing Some Time
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Get back to your homework missy! I know that's a few hours to late, but thought I'd say it anyhow. I must say that this site is quite addictive. I think your speech is fine. You'll probably leave your classmates wondering who on earth the band is you're talking about, or maybe some of them will have actually heard of them. About meeting this guy on the weekend, not to sound like a mother figure or something, but it has been my experience that with all the guys I have met from the internet, I have always brought a friend along for the first meeting. That way you know things will be fine. I'm not saying this guy is gonna hurt you or anything, 'cause I'm not the one who's been talking to him for a year, but do you know what I mean? Ah well, I can't tell you what to do, best of luck if you meet him by yourself for the first time, I'm sure it will be fine :) Just make sure you don't have to pay hahaha j.k. Hope you're having a great week! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-01-21 06:45:37 |
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Weekend At Wills
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argh! Whether she does or doesn't know she's doing it, you need to stop Kim the next time she puts you down. You don't deserve that shit- you are not her personal self-esteem booster. And although you might not feel "lucky" to not have a boyfriend, think about how annoying it must be to have the sole focus of life be men. I mean, wouldn't you rather have a varied life, with a boyfriend as just a part of that? [Elisheva]
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2004-01-20 11:48:13 |
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Weekend At Wills
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One of the things about peeps who put other peeps down 'unintentionally' is that she really may not know she is doing it - or how her words come off sounding. I am not saying you should get mad - but next time she does it ask her how she thinks that makes you feel -- No need to give a lecture, but ask her if you said to her what she says to you how would she feel. You don't have to not have her as a friend, but what she is doing is hurting you - that's apparent. so stand up for yourself, no one else will! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-01-19 13:40:44 |
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Weekend At Wills
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No offence to your "best friend" but her putting you down like that is just RUDE!! She should not have said any of those things to you and I do not think you were taking anything to serious. She needs to stop being so cocky and pay a bit more attention to your feelings. I don't know...maybe I'm just to opinionated, but she needs to stop being so negative toward you!! She's supposed to be positive and help build up your self-confidence/esteem not break it down. Anywho, enjoy your day off! :D [starlight_starbright]
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2004-01-19 06:10:46 |
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Weekend At Wills
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Hi. Please come to my diary. [surveys]
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2004-01-19 04:20:10 |
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Never All There
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Sometimes I get on here and I just want to dit on the keyboard and post total nonsense -- people's eyes are not on you here, we can not see you - we know only your words, only what you choose to tell us - you are the boss of our perceptions of you !! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-01-16 14:13:44 |
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Never All There
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Hmmmm. Maybe you weren't ready to move away from home yet and go to school? I don't know. What else...I'll play psychologist here for a minute, hehe What do you do when you're at school? Like do you do extra curriculars and jazz like that? Maybe you need to change the way you think? Like myself for example, I am working on changing my negative thinking into positive...let me tell you its not easy to do. I'm sure there is nothing "wrong" with you, I'm sure that its just a phase you're going through. Or maybe you feel like you're not getting the "college" experience and my advice on that one, would be to make it a point to talk to someone new every day and then from there you'll probably make some more friends who might help you with the college experience and maybe try and initiate more activities with your exisiting friends. I don't really know. Hope this helped! SMILE! Thanks for the comment :D [starlight_starbright]
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2004-01-15 17:03:10 |
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Never All There
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RYN: No, I don't have a man :( What I meant in that sentence was that I WISHED I could of found a man and still be dating him right now. I realized how confusing it sounded after I re-read the entry. Sorry about that. sSamantha[Butterfly_kizzez_17]
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2004-01-15 13:09:28 |
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Never All There
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Sorry you feeling this way :( Maybe your just having one of those days and hopefully tomorrow will be much better :)sSamantha[Butterfly_kizzez_17]
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2004-01-15 13:06:35 |
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:-(
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Rock on! Your B.O.B prof. sounds cool as hell :) Reminds me of my cooking class I had freshman year in hs. She was absolutely THE coolest teacher. Instead of actually doing work, we would all sit around talking about the latest gossip, in & out of school, and one day she even went to the point of making fun of this guy's "small one". lol! Those were the good days :) Anyways..that really stinks what that guy said to Kim! (wanna get together and kick his arse?). And even tho you might of not had much to say to her, advice wise, just being there for her and giving her a hug probably made the biggest difference in the world :) sSamantha[Butterfly_kizzez_17]
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2004-01-14 18:14:08 |
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:-(
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Maybe she didn't need advice or anything- just for you to be there and listen. [Elisheva]
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2004-01-14 11:46:01 |
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:-(
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Your classes don't sound to bad. That's pretty funny about the number of students who were all late for the same class. They perhaps should've made a clarification on the schedule! hehe Maybe that guy that Kim was fooling around with became interested in someone else? Or perhaps he was cheating on his g/f with her? That sucks that he told her he doesn't want to see her again. Maybe he was even thinking how it was feeling like a relationship and that's what he didn't want? Or he was scared that he was developing real feelings for her and didn't know what to do about it. No matter what though, your friend deserves better than this guy! She definitely should not let a guy ruin her confidence in herself...I've always liked the expression, don't cry over someone who won't cry over you! Tell your friend to be strong and next time she sees this guy to give him the cold shoulder and show him how much better she is than him!! As for you YAY for having such a great best friend and don't forget to SMILE!! :D [starlight_starbright]
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2004-01-14 11:22:56 |
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:-(
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No matter what your experience - sometimes a gal just needs a friendly word and a shoulder. We can't always dish out world altering advice - and even if we could it probably wouldn't change how she's feeling. Bottom line is the guy has something else going on and he can't handle her too - it sucks and it hurts, but at least she knows now before anymore feelings got involved. that's nice that you treasure her...friends are a rare and special things :) [Miss Jingles]
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2004-01-13 23:13:06 |
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Crazy Good Night!
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Sounds like you had a good time clubbing. If you have to share a computer with your roommate, I'd make sure that you delete the history and the temporary internet files and all that jazz, so that she doesn't stumble across your diary, if you don't want her to read it. I'm sure you'll acomplish all of your goals this term. YOU CAN DO IT!!!!! SMILE :D [starlight_starbright]
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2004-01-12 20:31:03 |
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Crazy Good Night!
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Don't get sad over your friend's "success" with guys. Would you really WANT to have to make a goal to make out with fewer people this semester? That seems a little lame. [Elisheva]
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2004-01-12 12:20:44 |
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DAMN!!!
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it's nice to feel hot - and look in the mirror and see hotness too :) [Miss Jingles]
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2004-01-11 12:31:49 |
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DAMN!!!
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Omgoodness!!! Kendall: Sex Goddess!! There are lots of those on MDD these days!! We rock, don't we? ;) [MotherAlli]
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2004-01-11 00:25:49 |
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DAMN!!!
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The clothes sounded sexy... :) Sorry that i have not been here for quite sometimes... :) I will catch up mroe later... :) See u later. [Storm Guardian]
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2004-01-09 22:37:28 |
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DAMN!!!
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lol somtimes its funny to have these one time you look in the mirror and be like "wow im pretty cute" lol you got nice pics! good luck at the club [Bre]
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2004-01-09 22:21:50 |
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DAMN!!!
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Woo that's awesome about the deal you got on clothes. Maybe you'll pick up tomorrow night WOO!! Have a kickass night clubbing! Look forward to your updates :) Don't forget to SMILE!! [starlight_starbright]
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2004-01-09 17:22:51 |
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DAMN!!!
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http://photos.yahoo.com/normalityco mplxxthere we go..lol...sexy [whatISnormal]
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2004-01-09 16:01:09 |
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Funny Times
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That's fantastic that you were able to go back over your old entries and laugh. To me that shows a sign of maturing and getting toward your ultimate goal of being HAPPY!! YAY! Woo have a kick-ass time clubbing this weekend, who knows what might happen there! SMILE :D [starlight_starbright]
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2004-01-08 17:22:40 |
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Funny Times
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I think opting not to meet people in the net is an excellent idea. RARELY, you meet someone cool online (like yourself), but mostly it's all people who have some problem with meeting people in real life and have the internet as a crutch. Not good. [Elisheva]
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2004-01-08 16:16:13 |
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Gah!!!!!
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I understand to some extent about all the crap you're going through with your braces, mind you I haven't had as much done as it sounds like you've had. I had braces from age 16-18 and now from age 21-23 and yep it totally sucks. And I have to have jaw surgery at some point to. I hope that it doesn't take to long to "tip" your teeth and hopefully that will go well so you can get your braces off soon. I think I would've given that receptionist a mouthful for being so rude to you!! Go out to a club, have a good time. Just think of how beautiful your teeth will be when all the garbage is over. I'm sure things will start looking up for you soon, just try and stay positive! :D [starlight_starbright]
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2004-01-06 19:45:15 |
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Gah!!!!!
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You've had braces for more than 8 years?! That is out of hand. I am dead serious when I say, I think you need to get a couple of other dentists to look at your teeth and get second opinions on your treatment. [Elisheva]
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2004-01-06 11:05:15 |
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Just Purple
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Good to hear you've been so happy. Maybe there is something different you could try at school, like joining a club or something when you go back to meet new people. I dunno. Hope all continues to go well :) [starlight_starbright]
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2004-01-05 19:41:21 |
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Just Purple
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You know what?? Don't you be wishing for new friends - just go get them! You deserve someone to cherish you for the person you are - not trying to make themselves feel better by putting you down...no - that's just poisonous - and not fair !1 new year - make it yours!!! [Miss Jingles]
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2004-01-05 18:57:07 |
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Just Purple
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You know- if you're happy with yourself, it doesn't matter what other people do in your life. They are just added bonus. [Elisheva]
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2004-01-05 13:02:15 |
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2003
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whoops it said anon. Mcguire*. So you didn't miss anyone...not even ME?! *shocked* and you had your op...i'm taking you're pleased with the results? things sounds like they are really on the up for you, i'm so pleased :D take care, claire x [TormentedSoul]
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2004-01-02 16:30:11 |
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2003
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hey kendal, do u remember me? Claire...i'm so glad ur happy and have loadsa friends and everything thats great, hope 2004 is just as good, loadsa love, claire x p.s, i like lizzie magire(sp?) too!!! [Anonymous]
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2004-01-02 16:19:30 |
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2003
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Isn't it great to be able to take stock and see all the great changes that have happened? I'm so glad they happened for you. Here's hoping for more in '04! [Elisheva]
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2003-12-31 13:09:56 |
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2003
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I'm all amused, you like the show Lizzie McGuire to! I thought I was a big geek for being 22 and watching it haha I'm sure you're new years will still be fun, maybe you could call random people and just be idiots! Enjoy the rest of your week, definitely looking forward to more of your updates! SMILE!!!!!!!! :D [starlight_starbright]
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2003-12-30 18:52:17 |
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Baby's Got a New Revelation
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Life sucks sometimes...I guess you just go with the flow. I'm sure there is a guy out there for you, you two just haven't met yet. I think that when you least expect it a guy will come along. As hard as it might be right now, maybe if you just pour yourself into your friends and your school work then things will just start to happen for you. Hope you have a Happy New Year! :D [starlight_starbright]
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2003-12-29 21:03:26 |
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Baby's Got a New Revelation
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What are you talking about- guys fucking LOVE it when girls initiate stuff. It takes the pressure off them having to always make the first move. [Elisheva]
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2003-12-29 09:45:29 |
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Merry Christmas and a Ho Ho Ho
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^____^ I could recommend some games but im not sure what type of games your into. I'm an rpg and horror&suspence freak so i can recommend some of those. FFX, Grandia 2, Legaia 2 duel saga. Resident Evil code veronica, Project Zero(Or can be called Fatal Frame) And last but not least, Silent Hill. Hope that you will have a good time for the rest of the holidays. [Blackwingedvampiress]
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2003-12-28 10:05:06 |
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Merry Christmas and a Ho Ho Ho
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Glad to hear you had a good christmas!! That's neat about your hair, somehow I don't think I'd be brave enough to put purple streaks in it. Hope you find some fun plans for new years :) [starlight_starbright]
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2003-12-27 07:59:49 |
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Merry Christmas and a Ho Ho Ho
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sounds like you had a good christmas! arent nephews so cute? hehe [Bre]
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2003-12-26 21:56:13 |
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Whee!!!
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Merry Christmas! ♥Alli [MotherAlli]
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2003-12-25 17:29:15 |
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Whee!!!
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Being Asian you can do some of the coolest things with eye makeup! You gotta go to the bookstore and flip through some fsahion mags. [Elisheva]
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2003-12-22 09:56:37 |
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Whee!!!
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CONGRATS on your grades!!!!!!!!! I made the Dean's list my first semester and I did flips down the friggin hallways at school (lol kidding) but then second semester I kinda got a really heavy course load and my grades slipped BIG time...3 C's I believe...ouch! I have every bit of faith that my little blunder won't happen to you! :) *HUGS* Merry Christmas! Love, Alli [MotherAlli]
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2003-12-21 23:11:52 |
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Whee!!!
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i love christmas!! ya... guys... its gets hard to be yourself around them because well i dunno.. just try and think of htem like a friend... try not to be nervous you know? heh merry christmas! much love [Bre]
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2003-12-21 11:18:53 |
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Whee!!!
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Congrats on getting such great grades and making it on to the deans list! You need to have more confidence in what you do! Woo for the guy hitting on you, see guys do think you're "hot" or "cute" or something, otherwise they wouldn't ever talk to you. Yep it's hard sometimes to believe when a guy says they like you, but you just gotta stop being so skeptical and go with it, as hard as it is to do. You're right, you'll get over it soon though and I'm sure there is a great guy out there for you :D [starlight_starbright]
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2003-12-21 07:54:54 |
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I am your neighbor -- lend me some sugar
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Hey, my friend's mom had a husband who was like that. He wouldnt let her hang out wit her friends and called her constantly whenever he was out of town and stuff, but now they're separating. Which is good I guess. Anywayz, best of luck to your friend! [Whispers_In_The_Wind]
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2003-12-19 17:37:21 |
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I am your neighbor -- lend me some sugar
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That's too bad about your friend and that guy. All I can suggest is you just keep doing what you're doing with her. When I was in a bad relationship before I didn't want to listen to anyone, I had to realize on my own that it's not the type of relationship I wanted to be in. Just be there for her and when she comes crashing down if they break up, don't stop being her friend. Craziness getting lost, hopefully it won't happen again. Maybe someone could get you a map for christmas. hehehe just kidding. Well gotta run, have a great week! [starlight_starbright]
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2003-12-16 07:15:53 |
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I am your neighbor -- lend me some sugar
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You know that type of controlling behavior is an early warning sign of domestic abuse. It is SERIOUS. [Elisheva]
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2003-12-15 14:30:37 |
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Oh Dear God
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Its a funny day huh? Hope that you are having a good weekend and sorry that i have not been able to comment regularly. i will try my best to get more of my comments into your entries okay. :) [Storm Guardian]
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2003-12-12 22:45:49 |
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Oh Dear God
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LOL!!! Wanna know my funny final story? I set my alarm for my exam...and forgot to TURN IT ON...I slept thru my exam!! Luckily I was allowed to take it still but damn...my mom flipped when I told her I slept thru my exam! LOL!!! [MotherAlli]
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2003-12-11 12:43:13 |
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Oh Dear God
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Yep that's just funny that you almost missed your exam. Totally good that your professor was nice enough to let you take it though and not even make you rush...high five for him! hehe Guess you'll make sure you get the time right for your next one LOL Good luck on your stats exam...I never took math...it's EVIL! mwa ha ha ha That's funny about Dan to. As if he wouldn't even go have lunch just 'cause you were gonna be there...guess he still thinks it'd be awkward to see ya :P Good for talking to Matt, sounds alright that you're avoiding him, 'cause maybe if you were acting more friendly with him, he'd take it the wrong way, ya never know. Well gotta jet, enjoy the rest of your week!! SMILE :D [starlight_starbright]
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2003-12-10 06:39:33 |
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Oh Dear God
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good luck on the exam! [Beanhead]
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2003-12-09 16:08:33 |
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Oh Dear God
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Whoa! Glad your professor was nice about it! :) Also glad you are finding the humor in it. I would be stressing out. [Elisheva]
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2003-12-09 13:30:36 |
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OMflippinG!!!
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awww i remember my 1st kiss... lol kinda unexpectedd too but we were like good friends lol but ya... sounds pretty excited.. heh much love.. dont let your friends get to ya about it [Bre]
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2003-12-08 16:12:24 |
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OMflippinG!!!
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*really big hug* Oh, god, reading that reminded me so much of my first kiss, I got that barfing feeling all over again. Whatever you do, don't let yourself get sucked into a relationship with a guy just because you don't want to hurt his feelings. In your place, I would keep doing the same thing. Staying on my old s/n (by the way, my new one is TheTragicBunny in case you want to talk) and just avoiding him whenever possible. It might not be the 'right' thing to do, but it works. He'll forget you after awhile. He's only met you once, right? So, it's all good, he shouldn't be, like, in love or whatever. And if he is in love, all the better reason to avoid him. (It's creepy and he should get over it.) If he makes you uncomfortable, don't pursue a friendship. Heh, but, as I've said before, that's all the stuff I would do, so it's not necessarily right or whatever. [Orpheus]
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2003-12-04 21:05:39 |
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OMflippinG!!!
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well, i agree that you dont really know him too well...but what if you start to like him? i think you should tell him you didnt want to make out, but see how being friends turns out. but this also really scares me, because someone mentioned something about him sounding obsessive, and i have this guy friend, and hes almost the same way...its kinda creepy... [Beanhead]
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2003-12-04 14:27:21 |
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OMflippinG!!!
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Hmm perhaps you could casually mention that making out with him was a mistake, seeing as you hardly know him and that you are just looking for friends right now, that you don't have time for a boyfriend in your life. He seems a tad obsessive as he wrote you all those messages after your make-out session. Don't feel bad about it, it happens to the best of us. I could tell you some things I've done that I'm not to proud of, but you get over it. At any rate good you knew he was a bad kisser, 'cause it will get better...I promise! Have a great weekend. Maybe just keep avoiding him for now, 'cause that's not to bad. Don't forget to smile. And if your friends are true friends they won't think any different of you for doing what you did! [starlight_starbright]
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2003-12-04 09:03:19 |
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OMflippinG!!!
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1) Block him (LMAO)
2) Kisses DO get better with time...AND practice. My first one I was so nervous I had like NO saliva and I had no clue what I was doing so it was a quick little peck. As time went on then the tongue appeared and I eventually got my rhythm down and now I have the confidence to grab Joseph's head and give him this deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep and passionate kiss that makes his toes tingle. Hehe...it's a good reaction...trust me.
3) I repeat KISSES GET BETTER WITH TIME...oh and they get better when you actually WANT them...
4) Please...please...please NEVER EVER EVER be scared to speak up for what you want to do and what you DONT want to do. The first time I had Joseph alone I sat there and told him flat out what would and would NOT happen. And remember...you draw the line OUTSIDE of your boundaries and then as you feel more comfortable you slack up on its placement. ONLY if you want to. But that way you're not promising him anything that you're not ready to handle. Drawing the line shows him that you don't put up with BS and that you're in control and taking charge of your life and what happens to you. It's a big turn on for most guys too...to show that the woman is in charge. :)
5) NEVER let him kiss your neck in *thaaaaaomgtttt* way unless you're willing to REALLY loosen up slack on the placement of your line...whoa baby LOL!!!! I so fell into that trap!!
6) SERIOUSLY...your neck...draw the line BEFORE that point...lmao....
7) YOU do what YOU want to do...if he's going too fast for you PUT ON THE DAMN BREAKS. Just say you need air or something...
8) I cannot stress speaking your mind...it earns you respect and keeps you feeling like you're in control and keeps him in his place. I don't know why I wasn't nervous as hell to tell Joseph all that I told him (that he was my first kiss...I was a virgin...etc) but I just got this burst of confidence and went for it. I knew that if he reacted negatively towards it then he wasn't worth my time and that someone else would come along.
9) I'm still in shock...I'm glad you got out of there when you did...you are absolutely awesome. :) *HUGS* ♥Alli [MotherAlli]
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2003-12-04 02:25:58 |
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OMflippinG!!!
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*SUPERSONIC GIRLIE NOISES* EEEEEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok now to read the rest of the entry...(btw...I could NEVER judge you...I mean...HELLO...you know MY story so yeah....) [MotherAlli]
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2003-12-04 01:47:56 |
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OMflippinG!!!
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Girl, you'd better sit down and think about what it's going to take for you to start sticking up for yourself. Take martial arts, play guitar (you CAN teach yourself), develop some skill at something. And you don't owe this guy ANYTHING. If he tries to contact you, ignore him, say you don't want to see him again, whatever. But note- maybe next time you shouldn't get into that situation in the first place. I'm thankful that nothing REALLY bad happened to you. [Elisheva]
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2003-12-03 12:56:54 |
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OMflippinG!!!
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The entry was for you. You're not being vain. You have a good head on your shoulders for being so young. [alice_elliot]
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2003-12-03 11:47:47 |
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OMflippinG!!!
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Take it from an old-timer, dear heart... Spontaneous make out sessions with strangers is what college is all about. Also, it is very rare that your first kiss be the most romantic. Most first kisses are surprises, therefore rarely good. And that is ok, because if your first kiss was the best and most romantic, you would judge all other kisses by it, and find them sorely lacking. Remember that the first time you kiss a new person, it is like having your first kiss all over again. It's different every time. As far as I can see, you have 2 options. You can either continue seeing this boy and having crazy make out sessions with him until it is time for you to go home for winter break, which I am assuming is fairly soon. Or you can just tell him you don't really feel like seeing him again. He isn't really a friend of yours, and he doesn't appear to be part of your group, so you have no reason to really care how he feels. As far as you know, the day before he was chatting to someone else and having a make out session with them. Take care of yourself first. You will be hurt and you will hurt others - that is just the way life works. [alice_elliot]
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2003-12-03 08:42:43 |
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BOO!
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Hmm that's not good if your friends guy is posessive and they're moving things along so quickly. It definitely sounds like they are rushing things by having said I love you within the first week and he has three kids?! That's crazy!! Since they're all from the same mother waht makes her think that he's not going to go sleep with this woman again? Maybe that's just me being skeptical, I dunno. Your diary is easy to keep up with 'cause you don't write like 5 entries a week (phew!). Have a superfantastic week! [starlight_starbright]
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2003-12-02 06:13:07 |
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BOO!
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sounds like you have a crazy life there! lol well sounds fun though!heh [Bre]
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2003-12-01 22:05:33 |
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BOO!
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those are some lovely spazz sounds. [Beanhead]
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2003-12-01 19:09:09 |
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BOO!
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sugarcult is a kik ass band!!! feel better sweetheart! love always n forever Beki [Boo Boo Kitty Fuk]
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2003-12-01 18:14:26 |
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Shopping...AGAIN!!!
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shopping eh? well i guess thats cool... im prolly the only person who can go to a mall for 5 hours and not spend any money... lol... yea i did that on wednesday with my cousin... lol i went in with 300 bucks, came out with 300 bucks... lol... hang in there and have fun shopping! love always n forever Beki [Boo Boo Kitty Fuk]
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2003-11-28 12:20:10 |
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Shopping...AGAIN!!!
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thanx for the comment... i love shopping! ya my mom wants to wake up hella early and shop on friday! lol dear god.. but ya.. your diarys interesting! im adding you to mah favorites! :) [Bre]
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2003-11-27 10:40:37 |
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Shopping...AGAIN!!!
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That's good that you don't want to have to take pills to be "normal" as you call it. It seems, well at least from what you've written in here, that you are fine without them. Ok so not fine, but ok without them. Perhaps you should go get checked out again, who knows, they might find something that might help! Yay for shopping! Enjoy the rest of your week! [starlight_starbright]
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2003-11-27 06:37:25 |
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Shopping...AGAIN!!!
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spencers is a cool store. my mom finds it hilarious...which i find kind of disturbing. [Beanhead]
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2003-11-26 21:50:24 |
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Home Again, Home Again, Jiggity Jig
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Hey thanx for the comment ... me and james broke up b cuz he was possesive and wouldnt even let me hang out wit my friends and he thought that i was a lil slut he had to keep on a leash .. i hated bein treated like that ... but me and my otha x shaun r talkin but i told him to keep it at that and he did so its all good ... thanx for the comment [melisallaround]
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2003-11-26 20:58:40 |
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Home Again, Home Again, Jiggity Jig
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hooray for happiness [Beanhead]
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2003-11-26 10:58:03 |
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Home Again, Home Again, Jiggity Jig
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YEAY! Glad to hear you so happy! It makes my day, really. :) [Elisheva]
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2003-11-26 09:24:49 |
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Home Again, Home Again, Jiggity Jig
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It's definitely glad to hear that you are HAPPY!! I know that when I was away at school I always found it nice to go home and relax for a few days. I'm sure you'll have an awesome time this weekend in your new outfit...who knows you might just attract a ton of guys wearing that! hehe Hope the rest of your week goes well and that your spirits stay up! :D [starlight_starbright]
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2003-11-26 06:58:24 |
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Deep Thoughts. By Kendall
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It definitely sounds like you need a HUG!!! Please don't take this the wrong way, but have you thought about seeing a counselor to talk to about all the thoughts you have going on in your head? You shouldn't worry about what others think, as hard as that may be, and you know what, you are right, if a guy is going to like you, he's going to have to accept everything that you are and that you want to become and everything that you do and think. Try not to stress, everything will be ok! SMILE :D [starlight_starbright]
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2003-11-22 14:20:13 |
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Deep Thoughts. By Kendall
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yeah...gothika seemed pretty good. do you know how the matrix was? everyone tells me it blows BIG TIME. [Beanhead]
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2003-11-22 11:08:10 |
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Sigh
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I can definitely relate to your guy problem...they can be so dense sometimes..laterZ~!! [sweetness_03]
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2003-11-21 22:12:49 |
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Sigh
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YAY!!!! You're doing my thang! WOOT! :) I feel so special! *HUGS* [MotherAlli]
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2003-11-19 14:48:16 |
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Sigh
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that sounds really confusing with the roomates...have fun with rachel [Beanhead]
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2003-11-19 14:38:25 |
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Yet Again....nothing new
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i want to be held right now too, i soo need affection, i just miss my baby so badly and her touch and the way she holds me and makes me feel like i'm everything... hang in there sweetie (((HUGGLES))) love always n forever Beki [Boo Boo Kitty Fuk]
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2003-11-18 18:32:42 |
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Yet Again....nothing new
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*hugs* things are not as bad as you think seriously. [Storm Guardian]
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2003-11-18 07:04:38 |
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Yet Again....nothing new
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ugh. cutting is baaad. a couple of my friends are in rehab for it right now...it sucks. [Beanhead]
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2003-11-17 14:53:57 |
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Yet Again....nothing new
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Why put limits on people caring about you? You want people to care but not if they are doing it because it's the right thing, or because they are worried you'll committ suicide? Why not? They care, that's what matters. [Elisheva]
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2003-11-17 12:29:59 |
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Hey, I'm tryin' to whistle at you girl!
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I am the same way with that song "Follow Me" by Uncle Kracker. I cannot STAND IT. I have left a store because it was playing, and I never let 3 bars go by before changing the radio station if it comes on. [Elisheva]
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2003-11-17 10:19:23 |
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Hey, I'm tryin' to whistle at you girl!
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Sounds like everything is going alright for you. That's funny that the drunk guy couldn't whistle and had to tell you he was trying to do that. hehe You should try and stop thinking "I have no chance with him" but rather instead think why shouldn't you have a chance. Hard to change one's frame of mind I know :) Hope the rest of your weekend was good and you have a great start to your week! [starlight_starbright]
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2003-11-17 06:30:00 |
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Hey, I'm tryin' to whistle at you girl!
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Elf looks like it should be pretty darn funny...don't know if I'll go see it or what yet. But I'm glad you had good things to say about it! :) [MotherAlli]
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2003-11-16 15:04:56 |
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Hey, I'm tryin' to whistle at you girl!
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everyone in my family saw elf last night...they said it was kinda crappy. lol. i wanna go see it...but im broke, oh well. oh yeah...and what song was it? [Beanhead]
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2003-11-15 14:52:45 |
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EEP!!!
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Yep definitely sounds like it's Dan's turn to step up and talk to you next. Yay for you for talking to him on IM. Woo for more hours...more hours more money like you said! Don't pile on to many extra hours, gotta keep up with that school work missy! LOL :D [starlight_starbright]
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2003-11-14 06:33:10 |
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EEP!!!
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im glad yew talked to Dan again... n have fun at wurk kk, try ta make it fun kuz well wurk isnt reely fun but chew kno wut i mean... love always n forever Beki [Boo Boo Kitty Fuk]
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2003-11-13 17:36:33 |
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EEP!!!
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elevators can be fun...but all the ones that im ever around are disgusting [Beanhead]
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2003-11-13 15:02:18 |
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EEP!!!
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Pledging? I've never heard of fraternities pledgin in the fall. [Elisheva]
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2003-11-13 14:17:10 |
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ARGH!
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Sounds like Dan doesn't really know what he wants, but from what you said he wrote he wants to talk to you but is afraid of how you feel or something. Sometimes talking to guys is like talking to a brick wall, you have to chip away the layers if you're patient enough. Woo a room to yourself! That'd be kinda cool :) Good luck with everything. Here's a good quote for ya..."In a world where you can be anything BE YOURSELF". Try and work on that self image chicky!! :D [starlight_starbright]
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2003-11-12 11:46:41 |
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ARGH!
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but they sell good step stools real cheap at wallmart. ;) [Beanhead]
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2003-11-11 20:49:25 |
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Dumb Dan
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the title of your entry made me laugh, because i have a friend whose name is dan...and his screename on aim is dumbdan...and yeah. anyways...goodluck with the email. [Beanhead]
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2003-11-11 17:02:29 |
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Dumb Dan
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Might as well write him back. Sounds like he has some codependent passive agressive stuff going on too. Saying things like, "I guess your life is just better without me" so that you'll say "No, no it's not, come on" I can't stand that stuff. Let us know what you write. [Elisheva]
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2003-11-11 10:01:38 |
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Dumb Dan
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Hmm... I can;t give you much advise on this matter lol... *hugs* [Storm Guardian]
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2003-11-11 08:31:14 |
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I'm So Self-Absorbed
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some of the things you've been mentioning sound JUST like how i was last year. i couldnt be happy (not that i really am now, i just pretend)...and it actually works. my friend chris actually turned it all around for me, just by telling me to forget about it all. if its not helping you, then screw it. thats what hed say. and its actually been working for me. and i doubt youd want to be taking advice from someone 4 years younger than you, and i couldnt possibly know as much as you do...but hey, ya never know. feel better. [Beanhead]
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2003-11-10 15:06:42 |
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I'm So Self-Absorbed
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Everyone has moments like this. [Downcastskies]
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2003-11-10 15:04:08 |
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I'm So Self-Absorbed
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I think some of the stuff you said is very important. Some people refuse to admit how fucked up they are. The first step to changing something is to recognize the problem. So now what? [Elisheva]
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2003-11-10 12:45:39 |
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I'm So Self-Absorbed
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Hey there! :) awwww. I hope things get better for you..it's okay if you only think of your problems..cuz sometimes that's just what ya gotta do! I just came across your diary today! Leave me a comment if you want! Thanx! xoxoxoxox [mother goose]
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2003-11-10 11:08:32 |
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Hm...
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HAHAHAHA, that worm thing was hilarious! [Elisheva]
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2003-11-10 10:12:52 |
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Hm...
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ah, my dear kendall, sounds like you had an eventfull weekend. okay, first, in the "worm" quote....were the 'worms' really sticks? If so, thats my kendall!!!!! I'm glad you decided to not go alone to the mini-party, probably wouldn't have been a good idea. Also, make sure you watch your drink if you drink anything at any place, we can't have anything bad happen to you! And all the internet calls, yep, there is the wild side of kendall coming out...just don't lose my quarter machine partner amongst all the wildness. Be safe, talk to you tomorrow, ~me its odd that when all other pages "cannot be displayed" Kendall's diary page has no trouble... [Emeraldmaze7]
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2003-11-10 01:11:17 |
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Hm...
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haha...that priceless about the worms. it sounds like something i would do... [Beanhead]
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2003-11-08 21:23:11 |
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Blue
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I love classical tunes that have been technoed!! They are SO FRIGGIN AWESOME!! :D [MotherAlli]
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2003-11-07 00:50:14 |
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Blue
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YAY FOR SALUTE YOUR SHORTS!!! [Beanhead]
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2003-11-06 16:47:15 |
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Blue
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Biloxi Blues is the title of the movie [whatISnormal]
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2003-11-06 15:58:19 |
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Sigh
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"follow your heart; it will lead you to the lucky charms" [Beanhead]
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2003-11-05 15:03:45 |
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Sigh
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You can't hate that he made it your decision. That's what you tried to do to him in the first place! [Elisheva]
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2003-11-05 09:21:21 |
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Sigh
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Hmm perhaps you should just start hanging out with him and leaving the IM's to a minimum. That way you'd get to know him in person as a person and just see what happens. Go in with no expectations. Guys are definitely way confusing! Best of luck! Don't forget to SMILE!!!! [starlight_starbright]
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2003-11-05 06:33:01 |
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N/A
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...do what you think is right [Beanhead]
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2003-11-04 17:43:10 |
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N/A
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Just go apologize. Simple. [Elisheva]
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2003-11-04 09:54:03 |
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N/A
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Yup I think that it is slightly rude perhaps you will like to apologise about it? [Storm Guardian]
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2003-11-04 09:22:34 |
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Surprisingly Okay!!
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That is a good letter to send him. See you do know something about guys, you know enough to wait a few days before you send it to him! I think it should definitely have the effect of making him feel like an a** like you want it to. YOU GO GIRL! :D [starlight_starbright]
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2003-11-04 06:21:10 |
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Surprisingly Okay!!
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yes, i think its good stuff too. [Beanhead]
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2003-11-03 14:56:23 |
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Surprisingly Okay!!
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Kendall, do you want to remain friends with this guy? If so, then suck it up and pick up the phone or go over there and apologize. We are adults now. We don't write notes or get upset because so and so doesn't like us. We are strong powerful grown up women. So if you want to be friends, then go over say, "Dude, I'm sorry, I'm messed up sometimes but I'm working on it." And move on. But no more passive aggresive stuff after that. [Elisheva]
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2003-11-03 13:24:27 |
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f***
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Don't you just LOVE it when blocked people sign ON under a different screen name and just SURPRISE you with their "HEY are you blocking me" deals? BLAH I hate that!! Some punk ass jerk did that to me once...I blocked and blocked and blocked until he got the point! :D [MotherAlli]
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2003-11-03 02:36:03 |
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f***
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*really big hug* Awwww.... [Orpheus]
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2003-11-02 16:11:16 |
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f***
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*hugs* That's craziness about the whole Dan thing. It's obvious that he liked you back and was hurt by what you said, but you need to be strong for yourself to. I mean if he's messing you up everytime you talk to him, maybe it is better to not talk to him. I dunno. Maybe you guys need to get together in person and have a real long talk, things are so much better in person. I'm sure everything will work out the way it is supposed to. I think if you got together in person with Dan and told him exactly how you feel, I know it's hard to be vulnerable, but then you'd find out for sure what he thinks of you and how thigns might work out. Best of luck with everything. Don't forget to smile as hard as it might be sometimes. [starlight_starbright]
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2003-11-02 13:47:47 |
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Shiiiiit
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I love kendall, i think i'll get her a stuffed animal that says "somebody from mcdaniel college loves me" on it too, as soon as i have money. Or maybe i could learn to make one for her, she could have a vicki original! SHHHHHHHH!! don't tell her and ruin the surprise. well, i'm glad you had such a great b-day, keep smileing. [Emeraldmaze7]
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2003-11-02 11:21:33 |
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Shiiiiit
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Sound like you have a fun time at Halloween and enjoy yourself throughly. Also that you have a lot of beauty sleep as well... :) Enjoy your weekend... :) It seems funny why do I get to comment your diary after so many entries.... :( Dun kill me for that... I will try my best to get my comemnt up as soon as I can okay> [Storm Guardian]
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2003-11-02 09:04:33 |
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N/A
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Ok here is my opinion, friends with benefits= slutty. How in the world can you think that your first kiss is more important than losing your virginity? They are not even comparable. Anyways, I think that people shouldn't have sex unless they are married. If you do the other stuff, that's alright as long as it is with someone you love and are with for a while. Ok that's all I have to say. [Jenna]
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2003-11-01 00:08:17 |
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Shiiiiit
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Glad to hear that you had a great birthday and that your halloween outfit went over well! Your presents sound awesome, definitely college ones lol :D [starlight_starbright]
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2003-10-31 06:28:37 |
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Today's My Birthday
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Happy Birthday to yew, Happy Birthday to yew, Happy Birthday dear Kendall Happy Birthday sweetheart! i hope your Birthday is filled with smiles and happiness! love always n forever Beki [Boo Boo Kitty Fuk]
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2003-10-30 19:03:23 |
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Today's My Birthday
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happy birthday [Beanhead]
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2003-10-30 14:22:53 |
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Today's My Birthday
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*sings* Happy Birthday To You, Happy Birthday To You, Happy Birthday Dear Kendall, Happy Birthday To You!!! Dan seems like he's way mixed up on his feelings. Good for you for being strong with him! :D Things will get better!!!! Hope you had a kickass birthday! [starlight_starbright]
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2003-10-30 06:30:35 |
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Good Will
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Lets see... *First, I WOULD CARE IF YOU DIED!!!! DON'T DIE KENDALL. DON'T DIE EVER, STAY ALIVE FOR VICKI. WHO WOULD SING ME AWESOME SONGS ABOUT ME "SHOWERING FOR HOURS," WHO WOULD I HAVE TO CHASE PIGEONS WITH ME DOWN THE BOARDWALK, WHO WOULD I HAVE TO PLAY THE QUARTER MACHINES WITH!!!!!! THE ANSWER TO ALL OF THEM IS NO ONE!!!! NO ONE! AND IF THERE WAS SOME ONE, THEY WOULDN'T DO IT LIKE KENDALL WOULD!!!!! I WOULD MISS YOU TOO MUCH :( *Okay, next, i love the hypothetical comment to your professor: "do i look happy to you!?" that was great, but also, didn't chasing the pigeons adn teh quarter machines make you happy?! Maybe we need to go back to remind you....ROAD TRIP! *drats, i had otehr stuff i wanted to comment on, but since i can't see your page, i can't see what else you wrote....i'll have to try and use my mind power....one minute please... *oh, you called me, you can talk to me, do you really think that you have exhausted all of your opportunites for people to vent to? cause you can always vent to me, imigh thave to call you back sometimes on my room phone if i'm getting close to/ or am over my minutes but i will still takl to you, it will make me feel special if you want to talk to me. *and if ya really want to cry, i can recommned this really depressing egg game for you to try...play that long enough and you could be a basket case....love you deary, ~me of course~ [EmeraldMaze7]
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2003-10-29 22:07:03 |
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Good Will
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First off it sounds like you need a HUG!!! I'm sure you've heard this a million times before but you need to try and snap out of the negative moods you are having. As funny as this might sound, have you tried exercising at least three days a week for 30 minutes? Exercising releases endorphins which make you feel better and help with people who are suffering from depression or blah moods. It's worth a shot and hey it will help build your body confidence to. You and I are so much alike it's weird. I am sure that there are people who would be sad for more than a day if you passed away. I mean what about your parents? Do you have any siblings? People don't always let others know that they truly care, but they do. You may not think you make much a difference in people's lives, but you do! You need to try and believe that. It's hard getting out of the negative thought patterns, trust me I know, but it can be done. I'll always be here to read your entries and try and help ya out when I can. You can do this. Don't forget to SMILE! [starlight_starbright]
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2003-10-29 13:29:58 |
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Good Will
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I would be sad if you died. Genuinely. For more than a day. And because it was you. [Elisheva]
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2003-10-29 12:15:28 |
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Yep I know exactly what you mean about the whole you almost push your friends away without doing it intentionally I'm the same way! Weird! Maybe you're my twin? LOL I'm sure things will get better for you. Just try to keep a positive attitude, as hard as it may be at times. Friends with benefits are AWESOME! It's not slutty, 'cause you're not sleeping with a bunch of different people, you're sleeping with the same one, just can't let your feelings get in the way. Hope your week is going well...don't forget to SMILE!!!!! [starlight_starbright]
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2003-10-28 21:44:28 |
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im starting to understand how you feel...because as ive said before, this is basically my first time in years without a "best friend". but i hope things get better for ya... [Beanhead]
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2003-10-27 15:22:11 |
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Wow, I'm Tired...BUSY DAY!
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Yes! Definitely go for the Asian schoolgirl costume! You could also try the sailor school uniform. (See Sailormoon, or other Japanese animes.) [Orpheus]
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2003-10-27 10:25:06 |
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*hugs* I know how you feel, it's hard not having anyone to talk to. Hope things get better for you! [Orpheus]
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2003-10-27 10:21:26 |
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you already heard my comments through your instant messages, i hope. But i just wanted to tell you that you can always call me! And to get your mind off your troubles think about this: Chesapeake actually won their homecoming;13-12 against severna park! Can you believe that!?? And the entire school got kicked out of pep rally cause they were being too "roudy" and because of them not behaving, pep rally might be cancelled for the next 2 years. Well, i'll talk to you tomorrow, i hope! Oh and just to start your day: Horray for kendall kendall the greatest of them all horray for kendall kendall the greatest of them all she caught the elephants caught them all even the great and the small horray for kendall kendall the greatest of them all horray for kendall kendall greatest of them all she caught them all with her magic net and thats somethin we'll never forget horray for kendall kendall the greatest of tehamalll horray for kendall kendall the greatest of them all need i go on? well goodnight deary, sweet dreams! [Emeraldmaze7]
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2003-10-27 00:19:46 |
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Wow, I'm Tired...BUSY DAY!
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Dressing up as a school girl could be fun! You should get knee high socks, a short plaid skirt, wear a black push up bra and a white dress like shirt tied at the waist, with a few buttons undone and put your hair in two braids. LOL You'll definitley attract a lot of attention hehehehe La la la! I wanted to write something else, but can't think of anything else to say! Have a great start to your week! YAY on getting your paper done! [starlight_starbright]
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2003-10-26 21:19:22 |
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Wow, I'm Tired...BUSY DAY!
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I'm so glad you finished your paper! i hate telemarkiters... i juss hang up on them... and when they call back, i yell at them... lol, espically when they call durring sunday dinner... lol... then i really yell... heehee i'm so mean.. well hang in there gurl! n have an awesome day! love always n forever Beki [Boo Boo Kitty Fuk]
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2003-10-26 17:17:21 |
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Wow, I'm Tired...BUSY DAY!
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yay for finiahed papers! ...now its my turn. [Beanhead]
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2003-10-26 10:32:26 |
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DIY FUN!!!
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"north carolina, come on and raise up, take your shirt off...spin it like a helicopter"?...something like that? [Beanhead]
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2003-10-25 13:01:24 |
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DIY FUN!!!
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Stop procrastinating and get your paper done missy! hehe I'm sure you'll get it done the night before it's due. It does sound like you had a good night. It's always nice to have people to call and talk to on the phone. Good to that you aren't worrying so much anymore about what other people think, I mean you went in and out of your building a ton of times without worrying what are they thinking of me at the moment. It usually hits after lol Have a great Saturday night. And try not to worry about all those other people out their getting drunk or whatever, it's not all it's cracked up to be :P [starlight_starbright]
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2003-10-25 06:59:09 |
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DIY FUN!!!
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omb i did dat once...in sdcc campus...it was fun and it was all drug free...natural highs...n den ppl never believe you...funny hoe that shit happens...well keep the good times rolling...-Eyeore, P.S. i did get it... [Eyeore]
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2003-10-25 05:56:13 |
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that sounds like so much fun! omb once i was dancing down the street and singing opera... lol it was fucking awesome, and people just kind of looked at me... i was with my friend Courtney so it wasnt totlly retarded... but yea... lol fun times when your not drunk or on drugs! love always n forever Beki [Boo Boo Kitty Fuk]
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2003-10-25 02:09:56 |
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i dun tell n e wun about my diarys from school... i dunno i tell my diary more then i'll ever tell anyone in my school... so in a way the people who read my diarys know more about me then my actual physical friends do... its weird... lol.. hang in there sweetie, i hope yer weekend goes well love always n forever Beki [Boo Boo Kitty Fuk]
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2003-10-24 19:12:02 |
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well, dont feel bad. i have absolutely NOTHING to do all weekend....there isnt even hockey! [Beanhead]
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2003-10-24 15:39:40 |
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WHY?!?!?!
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I used to feel like that on weekends too. And you do not need to get trashed just to have fun on the weekends...it really doesn't make anything any more fun. [Elisheva]
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2003-10-24 15:37:11 |
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ugh...i HATE the smell of burnt popcorn! at my old school, the teachers were constantly making popcorn in the teacher longe...but half the time they burnt it. so if you were ever in that specific wing of the school, it smelt HORRIBLE...meh, bad memories... [Beanhead]
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2003-10-24 15:02:10 |
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Um....nothing new
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Congrats on the job! But how can they get away with paying you less than minimum wage? [Elisheva]
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2003-10-24 10:00:42 |
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Um....nothing new
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That's good that you are being strong about the whole Dan thing, like not IM'ing him first and stuff. Let him think what he wants, if he really liked you he'd show jealousy toward this "Will" that he thinks is a guy and he'd talk to you about. Good luck with that. That's great that you got a job YAY! Have a great weekend :D [starlight_starbright]
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2003-10-24 06:42:00 |
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YAY!
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i'm glad yew got them bak... i wuld freak if i lost my shit... im glad yer happi tho.. hang in there sweetie love always n forever Beki [Boo Boo Kitty Fuk]
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2003-10-23 19:01:53 |
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That's good that you got your wallet back, it must've sucked that you had lost it for a while. Yay for your parents sending you some money so your not completely broke until you get your bank card up and running again. Have a good Wednesday :D [starlight_starbright]
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2003-10-22 06:56:18 |
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YAY!
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hahaha! Yeay! :) I love when stuff like that works out. [Elisheva]
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2003-10-21 12:52:10 |
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YAY!
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because this is a good thing? lol [Beanhead]
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2003-10-20 17:16:18 |
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f*** f*** f*** f*** f***!!!!
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saw you away message....glad to see youve gotten it back [Beanhead]
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2003-10-20 15:01:19 |
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f*** f*** f*** f*** f***!!!!
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They re-issue student id cards at the drop of a hat. It really sucks that you have to go through all the stuff though. [Elisheva]
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2003-10-20 13:23:49 |
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I'm glad you made it so SOME of yer homecoming.. I always enjoyed going to those ^_^ Yes, I wrote that poem.. thanks. [Rachael Ryan]
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2003-10-20 09:07:33 |
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Sounds like an awesome weekend! :) [Elisheva]
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2003-10-20 08:41:12 |
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im glad yew had a pretty gud day... i love racing down the stairs! lol, its so much fukin fun! n i lyk ta go shoppin too... lol... well get sum sleep sweetie! love always n forever Beki [Boo Boo Kitty Fuk]
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2003-10-19 21:11:58 |
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walmart is always fun. except the ones around here suck...eh, oh well. [Beanhead]
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